AbDdU!'s

I actually Graduated ...

2009-06-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Oh ... i just cam back here ... and found that it has been awhile ...

well .. i cant wite now anyway ... but yes .. latest Update is that im a Postgraduate student now ... wow ... as it that was huge thing in history ... i have yet started the research ... but it will be ready to rumble in some weeks from now ... or month's ???

i will be updating this regularly as i'll be visiting Sudan ... Lots of Pictures are expected to come up ...

enjoy the day people ... !!!

Convo ... 08

2008-08-25T09:08:00.002+08:00

salam ..

its over now ... so from a social-point-of-view .... im officially a graduate ...

it was fun ... people ... lots of em ... i met ...

but the best of all was a home-made cake given by one of the friends ... with each letter of congratulations made into a small cup-cake ... this gift i will never forget ...

so generally it was a good day ... never expected it to be good as i was forced to attend ...

so congrats to all the other graduates ... and all the best in life ...

my dad is currently at the hospital ... so i hope if u read this, just a pray will do ... and thats why i ran out after the thing ended ... anyway .... busy-unpredictable-unstable-messed up- days im having ...

my youngest sis is sick ... [OH GOD, ONE SICK PERSON IN THE HOUSE IS ENOUGH], but the sickness decided to come up these days in our house ... and that means more scheduling ....

will stabilize things once my other sis returns from kuantan and help with some of the homework ...

i caught flu with these rainy days ... i think i need a big umbrella now ...

hey ... finally Sudan got a Silver medal ... it came after many years i guess ... but honestly i was expecting 2 golds at the Olympics ... yes 2 golds ... one from Isamel and one from Kaki .... both in athletics 800m, and 100m if not mistaken ...

so congrats to Sudan for the Silver ... i mean in a country that doesn't sponsor sports ... unless its football ... i think its a good achievement ... and i think if there was more care, there are many good athletes in Sudan who can get the gold ... btw, we also have females out there ...

anyway .. a brief for now ...

walslam ... peace ...

"Learn to live in Society"

2008-08-14T14:26:00.002+08:00

Peace ...

This one of my recent adventures at the Uni...

it was late night, after a bad day ... the industry kicked me out some months ago, the academia are delaying processing of my post-grad stuff coz i came late ...

so i was waiting for the bus that should have come by 10.30 ... but our (king) the bus driver was sleeping ... he came at 11 and some minutes more ...

before the bus came, i was standing by one of the columns ... there is some space between the seats at the bus station and the column for a single person to move in or out ... i was standing there ... after getting tired of sitting ...

then come three (girls) from far ... and they decided to pass through that little space between the seat and the column ... i was there .. stranded ... and they approached , when they came nearer they said "excuse me" in its rudest manner - at least that how i got it - so i moved angrily ... i don't remember how .. but i did raise up my hand in anger ... since there was some "obvious" other space they could have passed through ...... but they decided to get it one me and burst ...

we had some clash there ... we shared some bad attitude ... they went, and later o went

but the moral of the story is that what got above in the title ; the girl told me "Learn to Live in Society" ... there are many conclusions ...

-maybe she thought i was an Islamist - and by that a sexist -
-maybe she thought i was in the best of moods and i would answer her by saying "allow me miss to carry up to your dorm.
-or maybe she thought that i was directly targeting her and not allowing her to move ... well ... i usually move for people , but that night was to bad for me ...

but those were both not the case ... as i was just finishing a bad day that turned over to be even worse ...

so i end up regretting the whole scenario ... i could have just move and let the $%^%& in ...

damn-it ....

i guess we were both wrong ... who knows ... maybe i was even more wrong for being a jack*** ...

anyway ...

peace ...
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Good Morning Malaysia ...

2008-08-11T08:37:00.002+08:00

Peace ... and salam ..

Good morning ... its just 8.30am ... feelin' fresh and good ...

just check'd the nst ... new strait times newspaper ... and 1st iv seen is this " Poor spinster lives in a chicken coop" .. i closed it ... and i dont think we need to read more after this ...

i mean if we are as humans are still living in these conditions ... than what's the damn point knowing about our fellow politicians ... they are'nt doing anything ...

so this is lady is a poor lady ... she used to live with her relatives ... so-called .. then they ask her for some rent-money .. what the!!! ... so she leaves em and stays with the chicken ... a sad story ... inhumane enough ....

anyway ... recently things change with us ...i mean me and the family ... we finally moved ... from our house to another ... but not another house ... an apartment instead ... feels good ... there is more social life there ... we had a house ... clean environment ... big ... near a lake ... near McDonald ... but it lacked social life ... people are too rich there that they dont really seem to care about the fact that they live in a "neighborhood" ... big tall walls blocking some houses ... more of a prison to me ... anyway ... now life is "compact" at this apartment ... but the place is cool ... finally after some years we can meet people while going out to shop or do anything ...

same as above ... but not lake and no high walls ... and a smaller toilet .. thats the most annoying so far .... but generally its good ... and hey there's an extra KFC and plenty of Restaurants ... making life better with plenty of food ... :) and yah .. finally i can see a swimming pool (i dont swim anyway) ...

so much injustice is made these days ... but there seem to be no one to care about it ... we all live heavily busy lives ... yah ... they made life more busy .. so we dont care ... anyway ... hope we will see some changes in coming future ... we'll, that if human-beings still have a chance to change before the end of their 'already-ruined' civilization ....

a random post ...

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"I'm Busy""I'm Busy""I'm Busy" ... and ya hell i am ...

2008-07-30T09:21:00.002+08:00

peace to all (although i'v included the word hell up in the title, hope its not contradictory to the word peace)

anyway ...

Why doesnt believe that someone is busy??! ... just because YOU are'nt doing anything with your life, that doesn't means other aren't ...

so Buzz off people of that type ...

and yes im busy .. so what? .. why is the reaction always some disbelief ... as if 24-hours is enough to complete or daily tasks + some entertainment ...

when i talk of entertainment i mean listening to music, checking yahoo, seeing facebook, reading some news from aljazeera.net...

i have always wondered what people do during day ... there are tonnes of things to do in this life ... and they need people to do the ,,, but still we find some people having more time upto a point when they know that some other -guy- is "Always busy" ...

anyway .. back to preparing some material (modules) ... and yah .. im back to tutoring again ... feels good ... so far clumsy attitude but hope to fix it up well ...

walslam ...

The "Undelivered email" yahoo garbage spam

2008-07-24T08:48:00.002+08:00

peace and salam ...

what's going on with yahoo mail?!!!

i keep getting some undelivered mail spam ... directly in my inbox ...

probably these types of emails are not considered spam ... and propably the damn spammers knew how to screw it up ...

damn it ... now i cant see "real" emails ...

spammers should be harshly punished if found ... F

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From inside Ubuntu

2008-07-19T18:15:00.002+08:00

hey! salam ...

Finally im blogging from my linux machine now ... its an Ubuntu Linux ..

easiest installation ever for me ... easier than windows with less work .. since i had to search for damn XP drivers ...

maybe il never go back to windows again on this laptop ...

Go UBUNTU! .. and Go OpenSource!!

hope all are fine out there ...

peace ...

Sudanese Music 3: more clips ...

2008-06-23T14:26:00.002+08:00

Peace ... salam ...

Its bad luck these days ... around me ...

many things have ended negatively ... by the end of this week it should be all clear ... hope so

This is some part of a long series of writings ...

This time, we have a group ... a good group trying some good music ...

In this clip many instruments are used, and the violin side was "light" .. usually some musicians use a technique (i think called double-not) which makes a violin sounds more like a "fiddle", those used in some folklore music ...

it can get annoying when you have many violins playing the same notes at the same time ... (in summary) ...

check this one for a better use of violins in Sudanese music ..

in the previous clip we can notice the use of a flute and a guitar, which are rarely recognized in a "Song" ... they are usually just "overlapped" by vocals ...

the acoustic guitar is rarely used in this form ... although it sounds great ...

next is a groove from the north ... simple ... hands+oud+drums ...

this one represents the northern music ... nice though .. originally done .. not much technology or electronic stuff used ...

its not in arabic btw, but fits within the "Sudanese song framework" :), why i say this cause majority of sudanse songs originate from the Arab side,

and these mainly are "haqeeba" rooted or influenced ...

just to remember "haqeeba style originated from Sufi-based hymns" ... so there you can find the relations between Sudanese music and other north-african music , such as Mali, Morocco, Algeria and some parts of Senegal ...

before i end .. thanks to u Ezanee for the reference ... and hope this series will last ...

thats all for today ...

peace and hope you can enjoy these ...

some news ... and a special clip ...

2008-06-21T09:40:00.003+08:00

Peace ...

It seems im on a long ... long ... unlimited holiday ... or until i find a "another" job ...

the 1st i found turned out to be a failure ... it didnt work out as it should .. or at least as i wanted .. included some bad luck ...

anyway ... im still at that best place , the library ... (anyway, i'l be indirectly kicked out by the end of this month, since my subscription will end by that end ... i cant borrow no more ...)

days are not that empty though ... i have some work ... editing for dad, blah blah ...

so im not in a full holiday .. nor im doing something that is directly useful ...

back to Sudanese Music ... i gave up writing full articles ... not time .. not enough resources ...

so il end up posting some material that will give a very general view of it ...

here is a clip from a new artist - i dont know if anyone listen to her back in sudan , but she's appearing on local TV (as well as local Satellite Tv) ...

this song is of the folkloric type, but it's melody shows the strength (and difficulty) of the Sudanese song,

little touch of an Oud in the background ... hope u'l enjoy it ... and if u'r into singing ... check out the difficulty ...

i bet she'd the best (and only) female singer with an "international" voice in Sudan, others are trying ... but none has reached this level ...

enjoy!

walslam

Go firefox !

2008-06-17T15:21:00.001+08:00

Its the firefox3 download day ...

dont forget!!!!!!!

While trying to buy Nasi lemak

2008-06-12T10:52:00.003+08:00

peace .. and salam ,,,

this writing is all about proximity ... or specifically "how near are you to another person or a stranger" ...

while at the Wednesday "pasar malam", while was trying to buy a nasi lemak, while was i was standing in some uncomfortable position ... trying as hard as i can to convince the saleswoman to pass me my packacge of that tasty-yummy-hot-sweet-stuff ... the saleswoman didnt want to entertain me at all ... (dont ask why but may be racist as she was and say the color of my skin! .. Oh God ... maybe and maybe not ... ) anyway .. she refuses to look but i kept saying "tiga biasa" ... ok ok .. i was gonna share it anyway ... i wasnt gonna eat all 3 ...

but the issue didn't end there ... there were about 3 people as well who came after me (guess it was the beginning of the number 3 curse) ... and they all got what they wanted ...

at that point i really felt heated ... sweating already as usual ... in the middle of a place where u'r the only "coloured" man to be purchasing some food which presumably made for only-and-only specific type of people (as many think) ...

to make things worse, where the topic of the day "proximity" shines ...

there were two girls behind me.. they kept moving and moving slowly until we were shoulder to shoulder ... then half of her body was within centimeters of mine (infronnt of me) ...

at that point i thought i ain't moving because she aint blind ... im not that small you know (for people who never saw me) ... and then tension was high ...

until it reached a moment that she was 100% infront of me ...

now damn!!!

what the hell is going on??? in my mind i said ...

and guess what? .. she ordered and had her food done ...

helooooooo .. there is a moron waiting here ... oh saleswoman ...

but wait! .. didnt i just said she was infront of me ... i mean really really infront as if there was not any kind of ethics that denies her to be that close (forget religion, and the hadhari thingy)... even if i was her husband i wont bring her that close to me while buying ... oh' man ... those positions are reserved for husband and wife (simple and plain as that)

where is the logic here??

i guess the nasi lemak may sometimes be more expensive than dignity (coz to me she was making herself quite ignorant of the fact that she is an adult aint no child anymore... sister ...)

that was soooo annoying ... you are infront of two ladies who cant behave right ... the saleswoman and the so-called-supposed-to-be sister from an Islamic background ...

i mean u can come close in some cultures ... but there is always a limit ... being "inside" is not as being "close" ... and pushing yourself like that isnt acceptable

and hey! .. guess what "even more" ...

i left without buying ...

yah yah ... i might be a moron ...

but that situation ended with me saying a rude "excuse me" to the soooo-innocent-not-knowing-her-proximity-limits girl ...

and they tell you that people are "thinking" these days ... i bet she doesnt even understand still why i left off like that ...

in conclusion i really hope girls know how much can they be close .. specially when they are in front and a man (a stranger and a black man) is in the back ... its not about feminism or sexism ... its about common sense and attitude ...

peace walslam

Mr Blatter and England

2008-06-06T17:58:00.004+08:00

I found this on soccerent.com

Blatter blames foreign players for England's KO

and for sure WHAT A JOKE IT... its another stupid way of thinking by the man on top

" Blatter, in an interview at the University of Zurich, said: 'Football is unpredictable and sometimes without any logic but it is a fact that in the strongest English teams the best players are not always English. 'So where are the best English players coming from? They are coming from the less strong teams, which is weakening the English national team. What is happening in England is that the best teams are preparing the national team players for England's opponents. 'The Premier League has benefited the other countries taking part in the European championships, but not England.'"

less strong teams??? probably he doesn't watch the EPL ... just some "Wooff" Wooff" ...

how much does he care about the England team?? i mean this whole idea will only spoil everything ... it will kill the EPL, kill England since the EPL will definitely die,

is it becasue ManU and Chelsea reached the finals or what??

and since when did FIFA started using the word "Foreigner" so much???

why use it now???

Football has always been a World's game ...

why would humans be so attracted to damn ideas like this ... if a player wants to play for his country --> he will play ... and the better the competition the better the game and the better the player ... simple as that ... [Pssssttt .. i think England needs a better coach]

FIFA talks about fairplay and anti-racism ... isnt it a racist move to ban someone who is qualified for a specific job from doing it just because he holds a damn different passport (or ethnic background - or maybe colour)?

i see it as racism generated from blind nationalism ... its not just about football ...

can we say Cristiano Ronaldo of ManU is a foreigner??? nop! .. he is a successful player at the ManU club .. thats how i see him ... and that's how he should be seen ...

Stop Racism around the world .... and stop whatever leading to it as well ... NO TO BLIND NATIONALISM THAT LEADS TO NO WHERE

we want to live in this world as Humans ... not as foreigners and Locals ... simply, a successful, useful Foreigner is better than a useless Local ... so open the hell up ...

i dont know why many cant understand this simple formula ....

peace

FIFA + '6 plus 5 quota' = Football clubs Destruction

2008-05-30T16:12:00.002+08:00

Salam to all .. and peace ..

"Sepp Blatter, president of football's governing body FIFA, has been seeking the introduction of the quota to protect the identity of national teams."

another joke produced to us by this world we live in ..

to protect the identity of national teams ... why is FIFA so eager to heat-up this "national casue" ... we as supporters arent so interested in this ruling .. or are we??

Come' Onnnnnn ... This move was initially triggered by some stupid nationalistic feeling ..

we try to kill everything through this feeling .. we cant live in peace with .. we go to war for the sake of it ... and now these politicians are trying to destroy our game ... !!! get you a**** off football ...

and if anyone will agree on this .. he isnt a football supporter .. football is about how you play .. and not where you come from ..

and i will give a simple solutions to those "Players with National Pride" ... if you really don't need players from different places ... then create a club that accept only and only so-called "locals" .. and we see where it will compete ...

but Sepp Blatter may not really know what Global-ization really is ... and what the European "Union" is as well ... becasue he kept insisting on this stupid rule ...

in the end... i really want to see strong teams ...and excellent football ... not see white, black, english, malay, arab or japanese players .... it doesnt matter as long as the game is good ...

DONT KILL THE CLUBS ... if it was in their hand i guess they will ban international transfer ... IDIOTS ... at least they will destroy Arsenal by this damn new rule ... ;) ... but dont worry Arsenal fans .. although a ManU fan me myself .. but we are with U ...

walslam

Glory Glory Man United ...

2008-05-22T08:38:00.002+08:00

salam and peace to all

I just cant hide my happiness!!! ... Manchester United are Champions of Europe ...

and let the song play ... here is what most supporters of other teams will hate ...

but let's be frank .. Manchester United deserved it ... Chelasea didnt ... although they are considered equal .. and a 1-1 score was reasonable ... but Man U have that spectacular game ..

Man U seems to not score the goal when it aint beautiful ... thats why their game is the most beautiful ...

Go Go ... Maaaaannn UUUuuuuuu

"F***** up Government"

2008-05-09T17:35:00.004+08:00

Well ...

sorry for the language .. , i know it ain't civilized nor this the way to talk ... but i had to use that word (and will use in this whole small article).. coz others were just not fit ..

and yes .. of course many might hate America and Israel ... but here I'm referring specifically to a government which disallows help and aid to its own people ...

whatever excuse they have: international intervention , f***ing national interest, f***ing military government superpower...

it doesn't matter .. people have died , are dying and will die .. you as a government is responsible ... so open the hell up ... let aid agencies in ... if you are scared of them intervening or spying .. then you're f***'d up ... f***ing government... you were warned and don't care about the local people ... so why claim ownership of the country and the Leadership chair??? f***'d up leaders ...

This was a f***ed up message to the government of Myanmar

NOTE: This article was censored after getting some email from someone, guess it was considered to be inappropriate to curse a government that is soooooo reluctant and stupid (at the same time) enough to kill its own citizens

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Sudanese Music : Production Blunders

2008-05-03T14:49:00.003+08:00

Salam and peace to all

Hope all is fine,

anyway..these days my status is just waiting and waiting ...

just ended a visit to the MPH stock-clearance .. it was good .. cheap :)

a long week it is .. waiting for a job - am i dreaming ? - i say to myself yet still im waiting as it was so near ... not anymore ..

imagine finding yourself falling down to earth from a challenger rocket which has already left earth's space and about to land on the moon .. how will that feel??

You fall not because it was you who wanted the fall but that of another person's advantage you fall .. you have no relation with that advantage he has nor you are related to the other competitor ...

anyway ... life goes on ... and now I'm not sure of the future is hiding... who cares??!!! right?, but it annoying and i cant focus on anything ... ayuuuhhhhhhh

so today lets talk about Sudanese Music, the hidden music of the world ... not many have heard it .. and not many have tried to make it available to the world to hear it ...

A music that is produced only and only for the local "market" ... call it a market if u want to ... its not a market in a sense that it will bring in more money .. its a market where creativity is disallowed ... a market where only a single "mood" is accepted .. be it a good or a bad "mood", as long as everyone thinks its ok then it will be ok ...

Ok so a little bit about Sudanese music .. Sudanese music is actually a very elegant, emotional, rich and very unique type of music ... really really unique ... because once you hear it .. you will know it's Sudanese!! no 2 can argue on it ... some say it's similar to Asian music (Korean, Chinese, Japaneses and Thai) .. but the drum pattern is totally different, so a listener can easily distinguish between these styles.

The whole musical structure is based on old classical hymns ... quite old ... its part of a sufi's (Islamic spiritual sect ) lifestyle, but then music was introduced as time passed ... and more music was in ... violins, accordions, Oud (Arabic lute), flute (different types of these) .. and of course bongos for drumming with some un-obvious Tabla (derbukka) -i say that becasue it isnt as clear as in the general Arabic music where the Derbukka is really clear ... all this was based on another view-point of which lyrics and melodies preceded music ... it was fine .. and was good as well .. people focused on the song lyrics and a little bit of music ... life was good .. and people were satisfied with that ..

The follwoing is an example of an old track .. ... this was an extension to the old songs which were to be named "Haqiba" songs

a more faster and interesting drumming pattern can be found at the follwoing link

http://youtube.com/watch?v=eQejtz9cGRc&feature=related

the author disabled embedding .. so im passing just a link

I'l leave you with AlKashif in the next sample .. a classical very good example .. at that time music was more organized although they didn't have that much of technology .. recordings were cleaner ... but this example from youtube lack sound quality .. but the remastering of the track itself is quite good and we can actually hear different instruments being played together ..

suddenly in that time we notice the word orchestra, so they tried to add more violins ... a typical band will use 3 violins (or more) , an accordion and a flute playing quite the same tone .. this was a sample of music been played ..

it was quite good ... but it was again not the best choice of instruments IMHO, the use of more violins like a European orchestra would have brought better results ... at least a similar one to the orchestra used by many Arab singers ... but be aware here ..

"Sudanese music is based on a musical scale called Pentatonic scale: scale with 5 notes to the octave, like the black notes in the piano. It is similar to the Scottish, Chinese and Porto Rican music." .. so you might want to read more if you're interested on knowing more about this scale :)

wait!!! are those fiddles or violins? .. well, it is mixed ... since many people don't really differentiate between many instruments it just goes through the ears ..

unfortunately as time passed ... not much changed either and this system was followed and was bigger bands were introduced with more instruments ... the worst thing was people were satisfied with this style ... no one wanted to change and those who did were considered failures at first until they proved otherwise ...

There were some creativity here in there .. such as this example ... it introduced more continous music with the singer doing all the work within the lyrics, it wasnt a known way of singing but he did try something new ,,,, although it was still within the same domain as any other ... it followed the same instrumental distribution and there was little change in the way it was produced ...

these examples are just simple examples, and the music evolved even more with a continuation i will present tomorrow ... this was just the beginnings of Sudanese music , a good beginning for their time which later producers brought down this evolving art ...

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Around KL .. Me and the Umbrella

2008-04-23T13:54:00.004+08:00

Well .. salam and peace to all

It has been some normal days ... well, Iv Just graduated ...

lets go to the word "Graduation" : this is just a phrase we say to satisfy our own self, that we did something or we have just finished some part of our life... well true to some extent ..

but graduation is actually the beginning of life, and life to human beings means death ... to live you need to kill someone (at least bring him down) ...

what a pathetic life we have... many humans enjoy this, we all feel it during the pre-graduation era, but it gets even more intense after that ...

we could have lived better if not for our own dirty desires ... the desire to bring someone down ... a desire to achieve happiness by killing another human ...

well .. we don't have to take someone's life to kill him ... he can be dead-walking ... a zombie or another killer who is ready to kill another

the worst part .. those who do this are "Graduates" themselves ... but who cares ... "as long as i live, the others die" said one of them ...

some will stab you without even knowing you, so you're a victim in this society of maniacs, probably 70% of the people in this world we live at are ... well, mad ...

but wait, once i was waiting next to the bus stop when 2 ladies passed by, it was raining, and raining .... you know kuala lumpur these days (if ur living here), they saw a third lady's umbrella partially broken, they decided to help and fix it for her, both of them were from different races, (many races co-exist here) .. that was -for me- a Petronas commercial in real-life ... i always wanted to see those commercials in real-life ... it was a touching moment ... to see some people helping each other with no hope of a return ... they shared smiles, laughed and the hopeless lady got her umbrella fixed .. what a happy moment for her as she was carrying many bags ... wait!! the story didnt end there ... i was next to this show of respect, freedom of mindset , human-values ..etc .. and suddenly they offered me a part of what was covering them from the rain ... for the first time i was offered an umbrella ... and even more, i shared it with the lady .. she shared it!!! i couldn't believe ... a person who could offer me an umbrella ( well, half an umbrella) i was in joy! ... happy .. and thought it was one of the best of my days in this city ... the city of kuala lumpur ...

Hmmm ... i knew those people were normal people ... they never felt graduation probably ... they were normal workers .. who came here to work for a living ... obviously they would have been somewhere else if they had graduated ... and i would have never got the chance to be under that umbrella ... it has nothing to do with knowledge nor graduation ... it was just part of the "humanistic" thing we miss ... they had it ...

anyway ... the world may become a happier place with more real humans than "killers", but we will always hear: who cares!!!

just some notes taken on past days ...

walslam

Done with my undergraduate level!!!!

2008-04-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

yup! .. after a long disappearance from the blogging stage, i think its time to come back ...

well, from the title, university level is done, now starting to get ready for my postgraduate studies as i cant get job with my current status as a foreign student in this country, its really hard to get something unless by unofficial means ( need some luck ).... anyway .. i like the postgraduate idea ...

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Back to the 70's

2008-02-19T11:41:00.002+08:00

Salam and peace to ye all

To many things to discuss ...

im back to 70's music again .. Boney M at my No.1 in the list, Bee Gees, James Brown ... and abit of jimi hendrix

running like upto 24 hours ... thats more of a 70's re-birth ...

but i came to conclude those people had better music than us .. even the recording , at least relatively

music in recent month's has become useless ... too much dependent on body language ... not even good music .. forget the lyrics ...

im also on my latest track ...a flute track for the first time ... so its melodic ... :)

had a haircut like after some 9 month .. feeling air on my head again ... it takes more than 5 minutes to comb .. so had to execute that afro-thingy ..

final year project is nearly done .... wooohooo .. due date the 15th of march 2008 ...

wish me luck on that last one ...

a very brief post of what has been happening lately ...

walslam

Ignoring to torture ...

2008-01-04T17:28:00.000+08:00

Peace to all .... (if u still believe in peace)

anyway ... you know what (yahh you ... the reader) ...that there is some method which will make you feel real bad ... its when someone you respect behave as if he doesn't know you ... even trying to avoid having a look at you ... so basically you don't exist ... we usually do this with people we hate or get annoyed with ... but when it happens .. it really means one thing ... the damn f***er have no respect at all ... and this is from a very narrow viewpoint of mine ... it depends ... maybe im wrong .. but when it happens it has on exaplanation ... specially when it repeats more than 3 times in a session ....

ok ok ... it just happened here and this got my nerves on ... we use to call this category of behavior "marginalization politics" ... some will laugh as i translated this word-by-word from an Arabic statement ... "Siasat al-tahmeesh" .... now this is mental torture .... you don't have to do anything .. thats the main concept ... you just let the person in front of you in a non-exist state ...

and there you have ... the ingredients to torture human feelings ...

walslaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Its Virtual ...

2007-12-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

Alslam - peace -

Finally, blogging from a virtual machine running Linux ....

finally the vmware is running and connected with the world ...

major work and analysis going on here .... clusters is the category for our Final Year project .. experimenting with clusters and parallel computing ... will post more details later on ... the project will focus on light clusters that will ease the job, we will test some programs on it later ...

anyway .. life has been going on well with the lappy top.... can stay up all night with a wirless connection ... this is the life i was missing ..

anyway .. gtgo back to work ...

walslam ...

Its a BenQ!

2007-12-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

peace ...salam ...

Finaly

Its a BenQ, best offere and specs as well ... couldnt resists it ...

My New Machine

Our 2 days at the PC fair ended up in a chase .... chasing the black BenQ ... wherever you go, its always that white one ... i don't know how many white notebooks are out there untouched ... but i wasn't easy surrendering to the white one ... its just too white i guess ...

after some wild search ... got my self on a Centrino duo 2.0Ghz machine, coz i needed speed, not battery life or what-so-ever ... installed the 2GB RAM directly ... it came with the neat GMA950 and normal high-end specs such as dvd-writer, SPDIF, .... and hey! .. a built-in webcam ... a 120GB HDD

it came empty though, you can only look at the BenQ JoyBook purple logo ... so i opted for the better windows XP ... not crazy to take windows vista ... it will suck up all the resources im trying to buy here ... anyway ... some development will be done using linux, so LINUX RULES!!!

another thing was that it's Driver CD was Vista-Based, so i had to go back and download all of the winXP drivers ... but thanks to the BenQ's Rich-website (free promo to benq)... i could easily get the drivers for XP ...

and with this .... it like a marriage ...

now have to go and learn how to take care of it ... ;)

______________________________Walslam ... ____________________________

December ... Wuzaaaaaaaa

2007-12-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

Heyyyyy .. yo ....... peace and salam to ye all ...

Its december ... has been a long time since i wrote something here ... was quite busy ... too busy actually ...

but finally we have agreed on a topic for the final year project, it should be something like a Portable Linux Cluster .... its an instant cluster that should be easily prepared, we will analyse performance and stuff ...

and finally ... i should be announcing my marriage ... yah ... quite something like that .... am getting a laptop ... finally ... yahoo!!!

will it be a BenQ joybook? a Compaq presario? or an Acer?? ...
will it be centrino or an AMD?

These are the questions that will be answered tomorrow at the PC fair KLCC 2007

Il be back later, probably writing next article about my new machine (or wife) ...

walslam .....

simple things .... bad approach

2007-11-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peaace ...

long ime havnt written anything here ... maybe its the end of a something usually when i get carried away by a new schedule , now im a new schedule, no more industrial attachment schedule no more company and more reaching office before 8.30 am ... its all over .. still virtually since i need to finish my trademark 5 month an 6 days as stated int the contract between me and the department .. it says 5 month and 6 six days which means that .. there is no way of comromising those 6 days unless by force as it seems ...

anyway .. back with another simple funny visual basic project to finish ... managed to do so in a very short time ... hours maybe ... i was going mad over how to generate data which microsft excel can understand, thought of XML, CSV .. finally decided to reprogram everything within excel itself using VB-A... and that solved the problem ... dumb huh! ... and then came up those simple stuff that u take hours to program ... i was thinking of using an array and then pass the array , then extract those cells ... it then turned out to be direct .. i didn't need to extract nor use an array .. just use the value direct as an input from the user .. dumb again ... but this the life in programming .. simple stuff .. but bad approach makes it tough as iron ...

and again ... the our programming class has been delayed just another day .. i thought it was 14th .. turned out to be 15th ... then i came and found postponed to 16th .. like what the heck was that!!!

anyway .. im so into it that i was never angry about it .. still fighting to get into that class although im not part of the "wanted" ... they want other category of students ... but its interesting .. and i hate limiting students to stuff ... while providing other stuff which are much interesting ... fight goes on to get into that class ... and by the way .. those "wanted" havn't been around .... what a useless category ... they seem to think that they have time to learn ... well .. my advice ... better learn earlier than your age ...

so far ... life has been good ... with a bit of interference here and there , but generally it was nice .. scheduled .. more output ... less sleep and more coding ...

somone came up to me and said: hey .. i need a full, reported , tested and comprehensive project .... hmmmmm ... no comments here .. but this attitude will help no one ...

people are revolting ... again ... why? because authorities have pushed us too much ... we cant really live life like this .... why the heck is everything expensive??? this will lead to people being more pressured at work and home ... better find solution fast ... its all over the world ... petrol prices going up ... although many rich people are getting much more richer ... what type of formula is that??? there must be something wrong .. wake up!!!!

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EPL: Arsene Fights for our rights!

2007-11-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

Alslam alikum ...

Hmm ... till when will we be judged by our passports??? why not by capabilities and effort ... why the limitation??? although I'm a Manchester United fan, but i wont be blindly following what Sir Alex Ferguson says ... He wants some "home-grown" players!!! .. i mean what the heck??? ,... for the first time i will have to agree with Arsene Wenger, although he has his own deceiving comments, but this time he said the truth ... he doesn't "grade" players according to their passports... its based on what they do on the pitch ... im sure all fans will love to see a "good game" .. not a country-based game which focuses on some "home-grown" players ... and if that "home-grown" is capable, he will be on the team ... if he's not, he shouldn't be on the team ... why are they trying to kill the EPL with such statements??? we as world-viewers like the EPL as it is ... any change will change the viewers ... i don't mind watching "British" players ... but the condition is simple .. if they know how to play , let them play ... if they are too busy with "Beer", too slow, cant handle a ball and don't like to be criticized, let them be and they aren't gonna play ... so salute to Arsene for knowing the meaning of a globalized world , guess the "British" are still unaware that Europe is the European Union now (EURO), and there is no difference between these countries ... but unfortunately ... they haven't learnt from what racism did to some other football leagues ... football is a game that teaches us how to think much more openly ... when it comes to club-level, so lets keep the spirit high .. and stop treating all of the other-world as "Foreigners" just because they don't carry a passport that you carry ... "Globalization" for God's sake ... Wayne Rooney is good because he is good, not because he is British or whatever ... and i bet if he wasn't good, sir Alex will not put him in that position, we all remember how beckham left, wasn't he "Home-grown"??? doesn't he deserves a better treatment as an excellent "home-grown"?? ... the beauty of the EPL is in its cultural mixture ... if england wants to build a team then it should tell its younger players how to play the game and how to respect others as well ... stop drinking and focus on football...

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loosing concentration ... women

2007-11-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace to all

I really wonder! ... We are living in a really “Illogical” time

I’m talking about the latest statement by Ustaz Nik Aziz's regarding some Muslim Women...

Suddenly you see those so-called "feminists-men" popping up and attacking the guy for expressing himself...

He said that (as in the news)... those Muslim women - because of their over-exposing attire- cause him (or men in general) to not concentrate on their sleep and daily prayers...

Now my question will be: what’s wrong with that statement???!!! ... Just for a minute lets forget who said it... And focus on its meaning… leaving the politics behind … just for a moment

Isn’t it true that over-exposed Muslim women distract Muslim men??? Be it from anything... Not just sleep and/or prayers ... bring me any normal “MALE” who will not be impressed by the bodies those women who like to grab the attention... those sexy-as-ever women of today … where any women is beautiful to some extent … and alhamdulilaaaaaaaaah

This brings us to a question ... why are Muslim women over-exposing their bodies these days??? Is it freedom, ignorance, marriage, bitching, fame, idiot-icity! ( I mean Dumbness, that was my own word there)

Now back again …. Bring me any normal man who isn’t distracted by semi-naked women … and if you do bring me one... then I will assume he is either a homosexual or a “Hypocritical homosexual” … or maybe some freak who was just “booted” by another woman... I will give him 2 days – in that situation- and he will then be “repaired” …

So those who jumped on the Ustaz’s throat for saying this are either politicians seeking their own good, or either a more dangerous type … the type who will like to see sisters in this way... Including family members!! He will enjoy himself and there will be more than enough for him to see … and believe me there are people of that kind … they will promote an idea even if it was against their own religion as long as they get their dirty benefit from it …

We are not telling Muslim women to be like afghan women with a full Burqa … or like those middle-eastern women-in-black … whom I really personally respectively respect both by the way … but just cover yourself decently … cover yourself from the hell-fire that Allah has warned us from getting ourselves into … if not from hell-fire … then just respect yourself .. It won’t be nice for people to look at you as a bitch or something … because if we go some years back we will actually notice similarities between what prostitutes wore in that time and what some Muslim Women wear today … there is no difference really! … if you don’t believe … watch any movie from the 90’s to see what the difference between what Muslim sisters wear and what those prostitutes wore in that era … I’m being frank here … sorry for insults ; although I don’t give a damn! As they say …

So the next time you (sister) prepare to go out and look at the mirror, don’t look for what expose (don’t buy it anyway) … you will only sin more and get people with you to sin … and that sin will be doubled to your sin … we know you have a beautiful #$%%$%$#% (whatever, I deleted this for decency) … so don’t try the “proof-by-concept” theory on your bodies …

I would love to hear about what causes women to behave and wear what they wear today… if you have any arguments don’t forget to pass them as comments as im still searching for a good answer …

“One point to add: if you’re a sister who thinks Hijab’s meaning is to cover your hair or head, please go back and read about Hijab, because its more than that … “

2007-11-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

They have convicted me of being a secular, of being living in the dark and of being a lost soul...

Hmm ... whoever said that don't understand what im talking about ... im talking about total freedom ... once my friend said ... we cant "taste" anything until we are released from what we are tied to .. so we asked him: what are we tied to?? and what do you mean?! .. he said a human is tied to his own false and unstable ideas ... like culture, people ideas, people saying and some fantasies created by peopleThis life must be enjoyed, as well as we prepare ourself for the hereafter ... but as long as we are tied to some human-made ideas .. we will not be able release ourselves ...

there are so many things that hold us ... such as the axis of sex (borrowed from Mr Bush's phrase: "axis of evil"), we are all going around that axis anyway.. it seems that many are wasting precious time tied to this natural axis ... which i call the axis of sex ... we see it everywhere , we talk about it all the time ... we read about it and try to discover it .. it wastes precious time of the many who are obsessed with it ... i mean we are "tying" ourself to it??? .. much more than we should .. i agree its a natural behavior liked, but its too much ..

then comes our own invention: culture, do this and do that!! .. when you ask why? they will tell, shut your mouth idiot, your grandfathers and grandmothers did so and so .. so you have to follow it ... well ... wait .. excuse me!!! ... why do i have to do it??? isn't it their own idea for their own time??? they wanted to do it ... so they did it ... i don't want to do it .. so i don't do it .. simple logic here ... but still people are so obsessed with it as well .. but in the still "conservative" areas you will suffer if you ont follow what people say .. be it wrong or right...!!

we think if these two "ropes" were un-tied .. we would live a much better and stable life ...

We have other goals in this world to achieve .. and a better later life awaits... heaven .. a never ending life ...

This is what i think of as freedom in this time .. but as long as those two elements control our life ... it will be a miserable one ...

_________________________________Walslam____________________________

Final IA presentation

2007-11-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

Wooooohooooo.......It ended .. finally , the industrial attachment final presentation, i was really nervous about it although prepared alot ... it lasted more than a usual 20 minutes .. and lots more for the QnA session ... i didnt calculate time ... but i was sure it was long .. my shirt tucked-in (i hate that!), im all alone, its driving through ... my nerves...and bone-s ... i have never felt so nervous for any presentation before like this one .. i had no chance but to get there .. it went smoothly though ... better than expected ... much better , finally i can relax for abit ...

now eyes focused on a more bigger challenge ... the much awaited : The final year project .... oooo, now thats a challenge i really like ... just hope it goes well .. if every thing goes as planned ... it sure will be of the best project for the computer science department (hope so) ... thats a target ...

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"A disposable helping machine"

2007-10-31T14:26:00.000+08:00

salam and peace to all ...

tomorow will be the presentation .. im supposed to present what iv done in the past 4 months .... ayaaaaa ... i dont know from where il start and how will i conclude it ...

it has been a wonderful time .. specially when you get an office at the 16th floor of a building where you can read as much as you like without a single fly interfering ... no people, no noise , no garbage, no feelings, no idiots, nothing ... just you and your materials ... i guess i will miss the office here ...

Iv just read different blogs, the bad news .. iv known these people for a long time .. by faces .. not by names .. so i browse through these blogs .. and get the feeling i never knew these people ...

so many examples ... like the blog of many of my so-called class mates ... whom i never even knew their names ... although we meet at corridors all week ... anyway .. who cares laaa ...

and even if you i do care to know ... it will be a disapointment that i get ... its really hard to get into people these days .. they have different excuses to "dispose" you ... even the basic behaviour that we expect from a muslim or a normal human being does not exist in many from whom iv known ... and i mean saying "Alslam alikum" .. plainly .. not "Alslam alikum wa rahmatullah , how are you today" ... i just want you to tell me : "alslam alikum" ... how hard is that damn it!!!! .... not even a smile do you get from people you see for 3 years ... but anyway .. it was good to know that they are expressing themselves somewhere ... with othe people ... and i mean on the net ...

its the last semseter .. and there is no hope of changing anything at our study place .. i was happier anyway ... its really bad to know or feel that you never existed in a place although you were there for about 3 years ... and im glad i ended it those 3 years ... not more ... my friends were the books and my CPU ... plus my digital musical instruments :) ... who wants a better life than that! .. and who can forget the sincere engineering students who made my life better at a university "level" .. although im from the computer science department ... i have to admit that most and i mean propably all of my friends are from other faculties and departments .. a really unusual situation made possible ...

usually in every department there are groups who will stay together .... not in department i was at ... i dont believe it myself!!!!

no matter how nice you become and how helpful you be ... you will be treated like any other disposable item ...

we shouldnt be saying this in a university level by the way ... maybe im too emotional ... but the truth .. there is no feeling of friendship or wahatsoever ... its all based on "If you have what i need then you will give me what i need and you will be disposed later" ..

its all based need-n-benefit ...

its either you are from a specific category .. or you have what they need ... even with all that you might fit ...

what a waste of time for me .. and they told that in a university , you will understand things better ... yah i understood .. i understood many things ... negative and positive about humans ... butit was a waste of time ... as i wished that i will meet someone who will respect as a person .. not as a helping machine ... or maybe .. "A disposable helping machine" ..

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The FYB day! (its FYP ;)

2007-10-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace to ye all ...

It was the FYP showcase .. the day i have been waiting for since last year's showcase ... our "seniors" will show their final year projects and we decide ... we vote and we encourage ... or we may continue and enhance their works ...

There was a very tight race between 2 projects really,

1 - The Robots: an assembled robot from different parts fitted with a microchip, camera and can be controlled with wires ...

2- The Boolean toolkit ... which is a software that can generate truth tables and circuits diagrams from some input of AND OR XOR ... etc

These were both fascinating and I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw em ... running successfully ... except for those cockroach's-thing-like sensors ... which will go into nothing when hitting a v-shaped corner ... but building 2 robot models is a success by itself, assuming students with no electronics knowledge .. except for the famous Appendix-A of our computer architecture and assembly language book :)

As for the boolean toolkit, it was an interesting idea, and i always liked teaching tools that will make the student's life easier ... it can be actually used in Logic Design classes ..
It was a good day .. and all the best to the others such as the groovy VOIP and the WiMAX simulation (although i didn't see the simulator running ;) )

Now .. its contemplation time for our own project ... im stuck with so many ideas and need the idea that will sure succeed .. there is no place for a disaster or unfinished project .. it MUST be done ... and i hate taking risk when it comes to projects ...

My industrial attachment presentation may be done next week .. and its really unpredictable since i have no idea of procedure or Q n A session ... good luck to myself, i really need an A, not less , not less,, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less .....

I WILL!!!!

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Death Cross : Masjid Jamek

2007-10-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

and as the title says .. its a death cross ... i mean crossing of a street ... people like to cross that street in a rush, sometimes dangerously ... and i really hope that nothing happens there ... i mean the street directly under the LRT station and leading to Masjid jamek ... there is a traffic light .. but some like to fight with time (and death) ... while rushing to cross that street ... i really feel that cars have the right to move ... so if an accident do happen ... blame the idiots ...

anyway ... feeling happy these days ... got my hands on a new programing language , the name is Python ... i really recommend you to try try if you are interested in programming languages ...

the weather is rainy .. too rainy ... people are people and me is me ... nothing new .. same life ... same looks of people ... same food im eating ... same route i take to work ... same daily routine ...

On these days it happened ... im oppressed ... discriminated and insulted by someone in a higher level than me ... a lecturer .. and this is not the first case of this kind ... it happened the same way with a previous lecturer .. i really hope those idiots will understand that there is no place for racism within campus ... just because im not from the same country ... it means you can ignore me like that .. Damn It!!!!

but, i can always write that negative report at the end ... i will this time ... i had enough ... and if the report doesn't work ... a debate will ... i hate fightings ... but no one will take my marks like that ...

anyway ..

who cares!!!!

Garbage......

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Slap on the face!!!

2007-10-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

Salam and peace ...

How ye all??? hope fine ...

so back again to writing, ... after some busy weeks ... finally the industrial attachment or practical training will come to an end ...

presentation should be coming week ... and FYP , final year project ... here we come ...

about the slap on the face ... it happened yesterday ,,, when i was called to help some people, but when i went there .. it was as if they tried to tell me ... what are you doing here and who needs you??? although i was there to help and they knew nothing of what they were supposed to do ...

ahhhhh .. students oh students ... never change huh??? but that got me real mad ... i mean someone comes and tell you ; hey! i here to do work for you .. you shut your damn mouth, look at him and then insult him by looking at him without answering his questions, nor do you respect that he left his stuff, and came to you ... garbage i say!!! ... yah those people are garbage and deserves no respect .. i really regret leaving my place, thinking of a way , going to the lab to get my a** kicked like that .. AAAAAArgghhhhhhhhhhh ... anyway ... it will not happen again ...

anyway .. finished my 80-pages report ... hope supervisor will like it (or have time to read it!!)

and now stuck for an FYP idea .. an fyp is final year project by the way ...

day 25 is coming of this month .. and there are about 30 days in a month ... all of them are normal, except that i have 3 events going on this day .. ayaaah ...dont know how to organize lah ... and none of the 3 is sacrifice-able ...

i have about 5 month left at university ... and every day that passes feels bad since i wish life will become like it was 2 years ago ... friends are decreasing, loyalty and respect are gone ... i don't believe anyone anymore ... life isn't as interesting ... well maybe i'm the problem ... and the saying goes "We Are All Part Of the Problem" ...

and yah ...

We are all part of the problem ...

i had so many things to write about before a week ... it faded away .. next time i'l carry a small note with me ... :) .. just in-case i forget ...

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The Eid (Celebration After Ramadan)

2007-10-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Alslam

Selamat hari raya and Eid Mubarak to all

It has been a very fast Ramadan indeed, and many will agree , and many will know that days are going real fast which is a sign of the "end of days" ...

anyway .. Ramadan has been nice and spiritual as always ... well at least at the begining :)

It has been a wonderful month for me, full of reading and writing for the project related to the industrial attachment .... and yeah sure .. im stuffed with JavaBeans ... it was all about Java and J2EE .... welll ... nothing like what we had during courses, its quite intensive ... someone has ot read different technologies at the same time and find the relation between these technologies and create something new ... well .. sort of ..

anwyay .. 1 month to go, shouldn't be that hard after finishing 4 months ....

back to our favourite Ramadan .. well ... its hard for you to notice it when you are in the city ... except when its time to eat ...

and saturday should be our favorite celebration of the year ...

so Selamat Hari Raya to all friends and foes .... wu Eid Mubarak

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Africans ... and Malaysia :)

2007-10-05T18:22:00.000+08:00

Alslam .. and peace ..

well ... again , we read the newspaper and see the phrase "2 Africans ....." or "African caught ..." ...

its really annoying to see reporters ignore the fact that Africa is not a country ... maybe they ignore it because they want to ...

Im a Muslim (mixed African) ... and it really annoys me when i see that title ... i mean why not specify a country .. or do you think that "whatever round is a ball" .. or a "watermelon"!!!

i mean respect the 50++ African countries, all have different identities ...

but i agree with the Kepong people that having Africans in the neighborhood is disturbing... wait!!! did i just say Africans????

So please know that Africa is separated, and we also hate some of these "Africans" as much as you do for their involvement in drugs, money "laundering", cheating , "whistling" crossing women and getting drunk ... plus their ir-respectful behavior towards anyone who is smaller than them ....

and we hate them more than you think ... we hate seeing them, because they tarnish the image of whoever looks like an "African" ...

i myself was insulted many times for looking like them .. although i was raised up in a middle-eastern style of a family .. we are Arabs, my mother is an Arab ... my father is an Arab that looks like an Indian .. and i think i got the African look from my Granny ...

and by the way .. not all Africa is bad .. although majority is ... you have north and south African countries ...

so don't generalize when you hate "Africans" ... there are those better than you ...

just be careful ... don't be racist ...

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Racism in the Masjid

2007-10-05T17:56:00.000+08:00

Alslam N peace ...

today .. on this Friday ... i got the shock of my life ... a depressing moment ... a tragedy ... a disaster ... its ....... its ..........

Provoking Nationalism from inside the Masjid... by an Ustaz ... and for those who don't know; Ustaz is a teacher .... or a person who gives talks ...

yah ... Nationalism and Racism from inside the Masjid ... he was talking about a certain race .. making it superior over the others ... mixing Islam with a race or a nation ... talking as if he never studied about how Islam separated itself from a certain nation or race ... and the famous hadith "There is no difference between an Arab and a non-Arab, except in fear of Allah"

He interpreted the hadith that says: give sadaqah to those near to you, by saying we should give sadaqah first to those from our race .... forgetting that sadaqah (charity) was for muslims ... the nearer Muslims .. and it aint about a race ...

no wonder people grow up with these ideas although they are Islamic-based ...

no wonder we can never Unite ... no wonder Islam and the Ummah will never be a reality ... and no wonder that no one noticed that he was wrong in what he said ...

and no wonder that 90% of people here dont understand the basics of Islam ...

so his speech was based on Racism that was generated from the Nationalist ideas he grew up with ...

What a disappointment .. Garbage ... and i was going to hear a motivating talk for the muslims ...

_________________________Walslam___________________________________

Society ... and men

2007-10-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace to all ...

The last time i wrote was about women, and i know that whoever read that post will label me as a "sexist" and discriminative against the female sex ... well it isnt like that .. if you read thoroughly you will find find that im talking about facts ... at least from a point of view. ..

anyway .. i have waited for a long and not written this one .. so it will be neighboring that topic ...

let the show begin ...

Men Oh! Men ... i have always looked at ourselves as a sex-oriented creatures .. yah .. borrowed from the object-oriented concept in computer science ... once a friend of mine , considered a secular person , gave me a hint .. he said: as long as we are sex-oriented, we will never advance nor succeed ... and yah true he was ... after long thinking , i found out this was our major problem as men that will put us into so much trouble ... some of us will see any object from his own sexual point of view ... like innocent apples, bananas , flower vases .... they all represent sexual objects .. and this will be "inherited" as well to cover women ... and our view towards women as sex-objects ...

This a big problem that i use to have ... there are many causes for it .. and the number one cause is the way we are raised ... some of the fathers will have this feeling towards women ... at least since im coming from an eastern culture .. so i can say this .. some fathers will raise their kids as if the daughter was something else ... and not a normal human .. from here come the confusion ...
even our societies response to a divorced and working women as "not clean" ... what the hell !!!

I mean lets look at it from this side ... what does a women who was raped has to do with the crime??? we still have some people who will blame a raped women for being raped ... and those are men ... and then there is the type (im from this type and trying to change) ... that will be blaming them for whatever happens ...

true we are need to change as men ... and our look towards the other sex must change ...

the problem worsened when people mixed culture with religion .. some cultures will "hold the women from the throat" and wait for her to do a mistake ... we'll in Islam we always had women talking , and expressing their problems ... but when we mix culture and label it as Islam ... just to satisfy our grandfathers desires .. we only tarnish the good, flexible and peaceful way of Islam itself ...

but there is still that infinite loop ... one friend once said ... "repair" the men .. the women will automatically be "repaired" ... hope this become true .. and according to stats it is true ..

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Society ... and women

2007-09-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

I have just read in the newspapers about the current increase in child sexual abuse ... and sexual abuse generally ... yah, we might say that child abuse is some kind of sexual disorder... but when it comes to rape ... I mean adults here .. Then it ain't a disorder anymore... but its an act based and motivated by many elements, and from these elements: violent-sexual-based movies, porn magazines, porn DVD's , porn sites , sexually provoking series , the never ending call for sex by many advertisements and commercial companies trying to sell their stuff ... so it seems we are living in a sex-based world ... wherever you look .. There is sex... and since this is one of those animal instincts that humans are “embedded” with ... it will be triggered ... maybe more than 24 times a day ... and oh i forgot ... one more element that people don’t like to talk about of fear of being labeled uncivilized and closed-minded ... and this element is just an addition to those elements. But I do think it can be a major cause for our sexual problems and crimes... The way women dress, behave and act in public... They are like telling you: "sir, would you please attack me, im a lonely lady walking half naked at night or at closed corridors alone" ...but then someone will interrupt me and say: sir why don’t you control yourself... So my answer will be: yah... im controlling myself but she isn’t controlling her seduction ... she is seducing me -for God's sake- ... and today in LRT's , buses and even just walking around the streets you will be able to see different sexual parts of women exposed to the public .. Its not like women want to look beautiful anymore... but as if they are trying to tell, we are all for you to take ... just present us with your good character and credit card or full wallet ... and some of them are actually innocent, and they will be scared... And they will never approach men ... but the questions marks are:

Why are you doing this to yourself??

Why do you need to expose all those body parts??

Do you want to be beautiful or want to be raped by some maniac on the streets??

Do we blame this maniac if everything around him tells him to do it??? Even that Nike old logo "Just Do It"!!!!!

Why do ladies get scared when anyone approach them ... although they are wearing bit**es-attire , and the way they act tells that they will accept invitations????

(and when i say bit**es attire , i mean an attire that will make her in the same standard of a bi** in the past years ... look at prostitutes of the 90's .. and compare how they wear ... with what women wear today)

If you really believe in freedom, then prepare for the freedom of others to look at you, if you like privacy, then those are private parts that you shouldn’t be exposing to the public...

And when you do expose, don’t blame others... Because exposed means public??? Isn’t it?

And you know what the problem is??? The problem is that no one thinks there is a problem in this society … people believe that satisfying their desires is all that matters … forgetting that satisfying all desires have some side-effects as well …

So you you may be saying ,why the hell is guy putting 70% of the blame on women??? .. well .. just look around you and you will see what im talking about ... i never understood women , but from what i see ... they are in need for money and men ... else why do they do all this??? and another point-of-view .. women are the cause of the women problem , they are the one's who force each other into making fool of themselves in the hope of finding some man ...

you don't have to do all this ...

All this, I believe that the punishment for a rapist is still light... We need more sever punishments (plus awareness)... And true... men must control themselves ... and true that women have the right to look beautiful ... but the formula and the existence of that animal behavior within the human being makes it complex ..So I hope both parties (men and women ) will cooperate in solving their own social problem … it’s a problem that may cripple the whole society in the future...

May We wake up before we loose everything ... for we ignore the basics of common sense

____________________________________Walslam___________________________________________________

Missing Children: Should parents be charged? ...

2007-09-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace to alll ...

and yah .. this is the latest news .. and my comment will be ...

Why do we always like to focus on the "side" topics and leave the real topic??? its like we try to divert the attention of people ... i mean we should be talking about how severe the punishment should be for such inhumane act ... and not to punish the parents ... because this will be just like another "chicken-egg" problem .. since we cant prove anything against parents unless its really obvious ...

and this proves one thing : the people talking about this now aren't really feeling what the parents feel ...

The problem with some parents here come when there is miscommunication between the parents which leads to separation of the family ... and i noticed some parents will not even be looking at each other , although they are sitting in the same table ... but this is a social problem that need to be resolved , and has no relation with such case ... these types of cases are caused by many other factors ... and please ... i hope they will not come and tell us that the criminal was crazy and he did all this without him knowing what he did ...

This is a criminal ,and if he was crazy he shouldn't be wandering on the streets preying on innocent children like that ...

anyway .. hope the best will happen ... insha'llah

So today went to campus, it was interesting ... increased my interest on Math ... and planing to study more discrete math in the coming days ...

We learned about Dynamic programming today ... its a type of problem solving technique where you keep track of subproblems result , so it can be used in other computations ... and also Memoization

I have also learnt today that math isn't hard after all ... (this isn't what a Computer Science student should say .. but its a feeling :) ...

___________________________________Walslam___________________________

Bad news ... And me going Mad ...

2007-09-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

Alslam and peace ...

as usual , spent Saturday at campus, and on Friday had one of the best Iftars , with a group of about 16, they are considered to be of my best friends, so we made the gathering .. it was more than a success .. but one of my friends was not there .. although i hoped he was ...

and the week ended fine, with more J2EE to learn and more focus on FYP preparation ... it seems that 2-month before isn't enough ...

and again we hear of the saddest news in this Ramadan ...

"Five days after the body of a girl in the gym bag was found, Nurin Jazlin Jazimin's parents broke down and cried yesterday, acknowledging the DNA results.

Nurin's father, Jazimin Abdul Jalil, a taxi driver, made the heartfelt plea at the Madrasah As-Sa'adah mosque where prayers were being held for Nurin before the burial.

"It is not the parents who should be blamed," he said.

"We loved our daughter. This is not our fault.
"You cannot blame us." thanks to the NST

I Really felt bad for the parents and from this blog i send my deepest condolences ... and i also hope for a heavy punishment for the criminal ... a heavy punishment should be imposed o him if found ... there is no way of mercy , because he doesn't know mercy ...

This act is so bad, that i cant think of a punishment ... you rape, sexually abuse , kill and then dump the body of a young girl like that means you aren't a human ... and i think even the devil will not do such a thing ...

May Allah help the parents and punish the criminal ... in this life and the hereafter ...

anyway .. this week has been full of bad news as well ... on the other side of the paper ... Mourinho .. the manager of Chelsea, resigns .... wee, although im a supporter of Manchester United (since 1995) ... but i felt not-so-good-either ... the man gave the EPL that "different taste" ... and he stirred as well ... blending his own ideas in a football league that has been "conservative" for quite some time ... anyway .. farewell Mr.Mourinho ... the EPL and all of us will miss you ... and wish you all the success as well ... (btw , i was once an enemy of yours :)

its 10.10 night .. and i have to go ...

but before that ... i would like to shout here .. a place no one will hear me ... that i really regret knowing some people from our faculty ... the ICT Department and Compuetr Science ... those aret he type of people that will know you for something ... but once they get it ... they will pretend they never saw you the second day .. and then they will never greet you back unless they are cornered ... they will make themselves (blind) for a moment ... they think you want from them what they wanted from you .. they think that all relations are based on something .. like you have to need something to know a person ...

These people made me crazy with them ... but .. who cares????? .. right!!!!

I really hate those girls who will invent ideas about you wanting to have them as your girlfriends ... well idiots .. you didn't understand me after 3 years !!!!! .. i don't need no damn girl .. its not compulsory in life to have a boyfriend or girlfriend ... so leave me alone before i blow up in your face ..

dont try to show me , or prove to me that you arent interested in a relation ... because im not seeking it ... some guys and girls sucks out there .. this is computer science for Allah's sake ... learn to program .. not to love ...

(to be continued)

____________________________Walslam_________________________________

3 annoying types

2007-09-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

salam and peace ...

1 - people who think they walk in an empty 3D space and never use the word "excuse me" or "sorry".

2 - People who walk too near to your back , to a limit that you can smell their breath although they are behind you ... and the same type who will leave half a step when going behind you on an escalator.

3 - The type who will ask you for something and then never notice that you helped them, even when that help saved them from some disaster ... and not just that .. they will also give you that grumpy look back ...

now the above are really really annoying ...

and today .. our partner at work mentioned something that i really wanted to share with the world ... he said:

Its not a matter of how long you live ... but its a matter of blessings you get during your life ...

He mentioned this after some other guy said when our friend arrived after we mentioned his name (this is famous) .. that our arriving friend has along life ... and they will tell that if you arrive after your name is mentioned you will live longer ...

and i think this a false statement and a false belief ... even if it was said to make you happy ... so hope we will not fool ourselves with these types of statements ...

____________________________________Walslam__________________________

2 Boys and a Girl

2007-09-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

Peace and salam ...

Im presenting here a true story ... the view-point is my viewpoint ... i mean im writing based on how i see it ..

so it began ... long time ago during year 2006 ... there were these 2 boys and that 1 girl ... they were on a journey to some place to do some work ... it was specific and everyone knew what he was going for ...

Suddenly, the girl was too nice to one of the boys ... but it seems that the other boy didn't like it ... he was jealous ... but the 1st boy didn't notice whats going around him ... and he thought it was only jokes and teasing ... but at the end of the day .. the other boy lost his "joking" control and started to behave weirdly ... just to prove his point ... the main possibility is ... he's in love with the girl ...

wow! .. he's in love ... thats not the problem .. the problem is when he tries to provoke the first boy ... he tries to provoke him and continues until it reached a level that he begins to show what he really wants .. but he never mentions it ...

and now after a long time , the first finally understood .. but after the outing was screwed by the second boy .. and the girl never changed during that outing .. ... although she knew what was happening ... she kept on making the one that loves her fall in the trap of jealousy ...

now thats not what the first boy expected from the girl as he was trying to be nice with her .. not more , not less ... he was trying to return the "nice" things she did ...

and at the end ... the first and second boy's relation became too unstable .. and they nearly broke-up .. because that "innocent" girl ...

but the first boy decided to change the theme to "hidden feeling" .. as to preserve whats left from his friendship with that boy ... but then he found out that he was an idiot after all ... he was put in a situation that wasn't comfortable .. both for him and for them ... they should have just cleared out things from the beginning ... but they kept quite, tortured themselves and tortured the other boy ....

and this story will end in less than 4 month ... yah i know .. because im a witness to such a pathetic "friendship" between ... 2 boys and a girl ...

anyway ..

I just finished watching "Geisha Girl" ... a documentary about those Japaneses girls who wear Kimono and entertain customers (limited entertainment - officially- so they aren't legally prostitutes) ... anyway .. the interesting thing was their loyalty to the job and their respect to the profession ... its quite depressing and personally will never ever participate if i was a Japaneses girl :) .... but they will spend most of their life training, and the rest of their life is spent paying back their training fees ... unless a rich man "free" them .... I really feel bad for them .. as Islam provide them a better respect and status levels ... but maybe they never heard of it ... and Japan is facing many social problems although they are of the most advanced technologically .. maybe 10 years "in front" of other countries in the field of technology ... still they cant find happiness ... and i hope many of them will find it in this religion ...

So today im suffering alot at office .. network is down .. we have some problem with the ISP ... an event i cant handle really ... no internet means no business ..

so till we get that internet back .. i will continue with this online personal notes of mine ...

i cant wait to be posting some posts in Arabic .. but they wont be many .. im just waiting for something to begin writing in Arabic ...

___________________________________Walslam__________________________

Breaking-Fast .. near to Maju junction

2007-09-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

Peace and salam ...

Me and my friend decided to have breakfast during this fastin month at K.L. ... so we went and enjoyed the food ..at KFC :)

Some of the weird thin i noticed was the very very early signs that says : Selamat Hari Raya .. or similar .. like comoooonnnn .. its just the beginning of the month ... its more of an ignorance to whats really going on ... or maybe a wish for this fabulous month to finish as fast as possible as if it doesn't exist ... forgetting that Hari Raya is nothing without this month ... so a "Selamat berbuka puasa" is a better slogan .. at least in the first 15 days .... anyway .. who cares!!!

Then there these weird dreams im having these days ... lost in maze of stairs within Semua House's stairway ... walking on a very thin light bridge made of ropes ... and many more things that i will not mention ...

so tonight i will be missing Taraweeh as well ... since i had some papers to finish and need to download some files as well .. AAArrghhhhh

and the hunt for a Final year project is still going .. not yet settle-lah ... it all boils down to the very limited knowledge we gathered in the past 3 years of Uni ... time runs very fast ... really ... i still remember my first day at Uni before 3 years ... since i got lost in that huge campus anyway ...

Comment of the day ... "and AbDdU's Special Comment" ..

THIS IS NOT HIJAB ... EVEN IF YOU COVER YOUR HAIR - DONT FOOL YOURSELF ... AND YES YOU ARE FOOLING YOURSELF IF YOU WEAR THIS ASSUMING YOU ARE ON "HIJAB" ... so in the image covering the WHOLE Face .. how CRUEL i am .... this comment came-up as i found that females don't really understand what the heck is wrong with their attire ... HIJAB IS COVERING YOURSELF ... NOT COVERING YOUR SKIN

Now in this image .. all the dimensions are clear ... unless you want to look like a Bi** ... you don't really have to wear this type of cloth

______________________________Walslam_______________________________

On the bus to campus

2007-09-15T13:50:00.000+08:00

Alslam ..

and peace ..

Well , yah .. while on the bus to campus , Iv saw things that shouldnt be seen in this month ... many many things ..

I saw some peopel who claim to be something , but look like another ... i have not felt Ramadan in that bus ... it was quite disapointing ... it has become a norm .. no one sees it unusual anymore ...

and at the same time there was the life and hereafter expo ... there were signs .. and there were people promoting ...

but i dont think many of us students here .. Read, Listen or watch .... it seems like the majority of students dont actually feel or know of the problem ...

welll ... the problem is .. we are nothing .. we are just plain dumb-asses walking around campus without even knowing whats going around at campus or around the world ... it seems no one reads about Islam, nor ethics ...

forget ethics ... this campus has become just another place to be at ... it has lost its soul ...

and we can only blame those who isolate themselves , wothout being able to voice out the truth ... hoping that they will be in heaven ... forgetting that we will be asked about what we did to spread the word ...

why make expos and lectures if you dont really want to share what you learn in them ... at least if you cant share it in English ... share it in your language .. Malay ... but it seems society here likes to keep quite .. even in dangerous situations ...

well now i have to go and pick up my sister's marriage pictures ... i have no time to write more

______________________________________________Walslam_______________________________________________________________

Reporting : From Masjid Jamek

2007-09-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

Alslam - peace -

Well .. first Friday of Ramadan ... so i decided to head Masjid Jamek, for those unaware its a very old Masjid located at Kuala Lumpur - its the oldest by the way - a 100 years mosque ...

Before the Khutbah began, they had a very nice "lecture" or "Ceramah" .. as called in Malay ... i really liked the speaker ... it was in Malay ... so i'l try to translate some of it ...

The speaker began with reciting a verse from AlQuran ... 2:183 O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you

But he didn't stop .. and mentioned another verse , from the same Surah or chapter ... O ye who believe! Al-Qissas is prescribed to you ....

and al-qissas here refers to the Punishment for certain acts.

So he said: we happily accept the first ,with joy and full enthusiasm ... but when it comes to the other verse ... which is in the same surah and uses the same language and has the same structure and order-form. ... we will then not have the same response as the first ...

and the full verse goes:

"O you who believe! Prescribed for you is Al-Qisas (legal retribution : Something justly deserved; recompense) in the case of the murdered: the free for the free, the slave for the slave, and the female for the female. But if the killer is forgiven by the brother of the killed against blood-money, then adhering to it with fairness and payment of the blood-money to the heir should be made in fairness. This is an alleviation and a mercy from your Lord. But whoever transgresses after that will have a painful punishment. And in Al-Qisas (legal retribution) there is a saving of life for you, O people of understanding, that you may become righteous." [Al-Baqarah 2:178,179]

but as the speaker said .. we take from the Quran what we like ... and deny or neglect what we don't like ... based on personal desires ...

and this ignorance will only lead to more gruesome killings ... as the murderer knows he will not be punished that severe anyway ...

He also talked about the Belief (Iman) , Taqwq (Fear -of allah) ... and mentioned that it should be our source of unity and strength, referring to the 50 years of Independence, and how the strengthened "Malay" feeling during those years overcame the "Islam" feeling, and if it wasn't for that Islamic and Iman feeling among many, he wondered what will have happened to the "Malay" ...

and while im writing this, im hearing on TV, a rape scene from some stupid Egyptian series ... the scene lasted for more than 30 minutes ... it was really, really , really annoying ... i guess it was one of those wacky, insane and idiotic producers and writers of such pathetic series ... and they want to show this on TV, during Ramadan .. it was aired on channel ART, they call the Arab Radio and Television ... yah rite ... they only broadcast garbage ... although i was inside the room , i could hear the screams outside ... the easy solution was to change he damn channel

back to our speaker, he ended with a really sad story of the companions, and how they suffered for the sake of this religion ... a sacrifice that we forget ... we only remember that Mr Independence sacrificed for our countries ... but those sacrificed not just for a nation .. they sacrificed to save our beloved prophet, they sacrificed for Islam and they sacrificed so the message will remain alive, so it will reach us today ...

but ... we never cared .. we never read history ... we never read at all ...

we will stay like this forever .. or become worse .. unless someone stands up and speak aloud ...

You, me , or whatever .. the word must be spread .. or we will never be able to answer on the day of judgment ...

______________________________Walslam_______________________________

Ramadan ... at Kuala Lumpur ..

2007-09-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

Alslam - peace - to all ..

Its the 1st day of Ramadan ... September 2007, Kuala Lumpur (K.L) not as usual .. and everything is misplaced, it began with a small jam at the morning, but it was ok ... Streets filled with extra stalls ... specially TAR area ...

but still some Muslims arent aware that this is a so-called special month ... like at least we should change "abit" ... at least we feel that its a different month ... - although that feeling isnt suppose to be only in this month - but i can still see those who pretend nothing is happening ... walking on the streets just like any other day ... unaware of the en-ethical state they are in ... like a guy putting his hand on the back-pocket of his "girlfriend" jeans, 2 others walking their hands and bodies "glued" to each other, those deeply-tight jeans are still on the loose ..

but mainly the streets are less crowded, probably i should wait for 5 or after that ...

still havn't witnessed how it is at campus ... should be testing it in the coming days ... inshallah ... although i have a feeling that it will be disappointing for such an institute to have such samples ... roaming and walking around for no respect - even to themselves -

so i began this day with unstable health ... flu in the morning, and a some disturbing stomachache

So il just wait and observe how this Ramadan will be treated .. specially observing my own self ... as my past Ramadans weren't really planned or focused and i regret loosing the chance to something ... this Ramadan should be different ... inshallah ... hope to see some progress from all aspects ....

And before i end ... Finally , i have registered my last subjects at Uni. , and next sem will be the last ... finally ... but now i have to squeeze my brain and my partner's brain for some final year project idea ... it felt so great to register those last subjects ... although there were obstacles from here and there .... virtual obstacles made by the department ... but the registration went fine ... and we are now on the process of getting the idea ...

There are quiet a number of fields ... from Cryptography, Security, Embedded systems to Neural networks .. and choosing a topic from these fields isnt that easy ... it requires a strategy ... a strategy that will lead to a finished project ...

all for the moment

______________________________Walslam________________________________

FYP = Final Year Project (MEETING 1)

2007-09-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

Alslam (peace) ...

well , well , welll ..... it was a disaster ... empty promises .... people who like to talk alot and do little ... shout ... preach ... but little done ...

it was quite disappointing ... i reached earlier in the morning, hoping to meet old "pals" ... but it was again .. a disaster ... as usual .. no one has the "intention" to come ... we do this , we do that .. this the slogan .. but when it comes to implementation ... i dont know lahhhhh .. who cares!!!! ..

yah .. this was always the behavior and attitude of " WHO CARES!!!!" .... yah .. who cares ... nobody cares ... no one will ... whatever happen to the other .. as long as im having fun .. who cares ....

this is year 4 guys ... and girls ....

if u still don't have the "appetite" to discuss about technologies ... then find some other business to do ... computer science was always about discussion .. because u cant understand everything by your own ... and if u want to learn by your own ..please do let me know of what you will learn in the next 10 years .... "Garbage"....

we witness creativity at western universities ... so we blame our university ... no one blames himself for not being responsible ...

well ... if u say i will ... and don't do ... thats called irresponsible ... be it a small or big matter ...

im just saying this , because im really disgusted by what happened today ....

DISGUSTING ... it is to say and dont do ... moreover , pretend that you care ....

________________________walslam_____________________________________

Advice .. nasihah ...

2007-09-05T18:46:00.000+08:00

Salam and peace to all ...

A tiring week it has been ... really tiring ... and it shouldn't be ending ...

anyway .. have learned alot from some Problem solving and algorithms ... its quite interesting to let your brain work ... and i'v found out that we rarely think about a problem ,,, so now im getting the idea of how to look at games and puzzles - at least using different point-of-views ...

as well ... the long awaited ummatic week has been canceled or postponed ( not sure which) , and our Fasting month is coming ... now i really don't know how to arrange time for this special month ... its either eat better food at home or pray at our grand mosque ... we'll figure that out ...

Today .. Sinar (not sure of full name) , the newspaper is out ... a very interesting idea .. its a newspaper that takes care of the capital Kuala Lumpur and Selangor province ... sure will be reading that , as its more focused ... on places at least i heard of ... not like when you present me with problems at JB or other states ...

Now lets head for abit of discussion ...

its about life ... people and feelings ...

Sometimes we find ourselves surrounded by people ... we knew for a long time ... but suddenly we feel we never knew them ... probably they are trying to tell ... "I have known you for something ... i wanted .. and now i got it ..so scram!!!!!" ...

Well this is what i feel at least ... judge me of being over-sensitive for caring about this ... but im wondering ..and it really disturbs me ... of how they think .. i mean ... what goes into their mind after they do this ... ???? do they just forget and restart another session???? ... sometime you just feel all people around are up to something ... they need something ...

like in the past few weeks , i got some sms's and calls from people not remembered for a long time ... then to discover after sometime that they wanted help in something else ...

now please ... that disgusting ....

now lets move away from personal thoughts and feelings ... lets move towards a different topic .. a topic touched in previous posts ... "Criticism" ...

We have that : everyone is accountable, no one is beyond criticism ... furthermore, the freedom to criticize should not be used as a mean of degrading people or tarnishing their image, or just as a mean to hurt other's feelings ... but at the end it depends on how much you know the person in most cases ...

There are some conditions that must be met in order to ensure the validity of a given criticism ...

(1) - It is necessary to establish the facts an ascertain the grounds on which criticism is based.
So if someone comes to you with some news, make sure its correct. It should no be based
on assumptions or false ideas.
(2) - The critic should criticize based on the truth. so he shouldn't criticize based on something
he is not sure of. And if he was to know that mistake then its under lying or worse
hypocrisy.
(3) - The criticsm must suit the occasion, it must be courteous and effective.

We must always remember that Nasihah (advice) was never forcing, if you have something that you think is true, it doesn't really have to be the same with the other .... maybe the other is aware of the wrong-doing ... but waiting for the time to change (forgetting that death is an unknown variable) ... so here comes the art of discussion ... something we need to practice ourselves for and with ... for discussions and with discussions ...

Well seems like im giving some advice ... but while im writing this, i always think of myself ... and remember my friends statement "we must advice ourselves first" ... "so this is just a reminder , in case we forgot" ... (famously said by UmmahFilms director and creator)

walslam (peace)
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Sex and Photos .. what a case!!!

2007-08-31T22:57:00.001+08:00

Alslam and peace to ye all

I have always read newspapers , but i always wanted to comment, and i thought newspapers were only there to report , not to comment ... i would love if we could - or the reporters - post their personal comments on newspapers .. or at least give people the chance to do that ... and fortunately their is online newspapers these days ..

so let me comment on this bizarre part of news iv read recently ... or precisely -today- ..

****************************My comments in brackets, mostly italic***************
*****************************fom the NST , 31 August 2007 ****************************
"

SHAH ALAM: They were in love but when the relationship turned sour, a 16-year-old girl was confronted with her worst nightmare.

Her boyfriend, a 19-year-old security guard, threatened to distribute pictures of her in the nude.

He had apparently taken the pictures using a mobile phone during their SEVEN-HOUR (wow!) sex session behind the guardhouse of SMK Section 7, here.

Yesterday, Irma Shamsul Izwan Jamahir, paid the price (was it the right price , or discounted??!!! ) for threatening the Form Four student. He was fined RM3,000 (price of having sex with a so-called underage is quite cheap) , or in default three months’ jail (again wow!!! this will deter the wrong-doers) , by the magistrate’s court after he pleaded guilty to threatening to distribute her pictures to ruin her reputation.

Based on the facts of the case, Irma and the girl had sex on March 27, between 10am and 5pm, where he had then taken pictures of her in the nude.
The next day, the girl decided to end the relationship (interestingly, finally the brain started to work ) but Irma refused (what was he hoping for???) . He met her on March 29 and threatened to distribute the pictures unless she remained with him.

The girl subsequently lodg-ed a police report (hoping that the pictures will not be distributed, that was her problem ... not really worried about her dignity as a young girl may have been shattered -according to some standards- ... these are Muslims names im reading about).

In mitigation, counsel Salim Bashir pleaded for leniency as his client had meant no physical harm (what a joke again ... i agree that it was with consent ... but sometimes mental harm is worse than physical harm, specially that a threat came after).

"He has now moved to Bagan Datoh and is still working as a guard there.

"He apologised to the victim and her family and promised not to do it again (what a nice boy he is ... indeed)," he said.

Prosecuting officer ASP Norazian Sharudin urged magistrate Hafizah Abdul Rajak to mete out a deterrent sentence (the only person who knew what was going on).

Irma’s father paid the fine (nice daddy ... hope to keep and save some money for next time).

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so from the above story ... everything was usual ....yah rite!!!!!!! , except the threat of distributing nude photos of a seven hour session - i still can imagine what happened, and why all this time was needed -, ... to me ... it was badly unusual ... so if this was usual ... can anyone share other interesting cases about love relationships which gone wild -- then bad???? ... no one can! .. because its unusual ... but taking out a report like that .. and then going to the next page without thinking of its consequences on the society .. is just lame reading of newspapers ...

just thought of sharing my view on this bizarre piece of (news) ....

wa (peace) (salam) to all ....

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Of the Week, Preaching and Programming

2007-08-29T19:52:00.001+08:00

Alslam (peace) to all. ..

well as usual , back again , disappointed by whats going ... but who am I? and who cares?!! ..

This is the method used to counter events and actions these days ... who am I to speak ??? and who cares!!! its not your business , never it will ...

but for some reason .. i do care for whats happening around ...

so for the week ... lets begin with the most i can remember ... well it was yesterday night when some guy was up and talking hard .. trying to teach us how to love the nation and be like him ... someone who sacrificed alot for ... for the sake of the Nation ... anyway ... the guy was a good preacher and a liar as well ... he "bent", "twisted" information as he wanted ... to convince us that we are doing nothing to help our country-mates ... forgetting that those mates aren't really mates .. they are enemies-of-the-future... they don't hear advice nor do they act like students so we ca help them ... they are just like another 50cent on the block ... New York caps with baggy wear, 3 meters long T-shirts and Sean Paul signature on jeans ... passing over their A**e* ... so i came back night with headache ... and regretted visiting campus for that occasion ... it was unacceptable ... a 8 pm event was delayed till 10pm ... leaving no hope for extra time ... so it was another 2 hours wasted from my life ... and honestly i was there because of my friend who was being honored on that day for ending his Uni days ... he was disappointed as well ...

and many other events happened, i had to deal with people who don't own feelings, people who will assume what is not there , and those who will avoid you without telling you the reason for this avoidance .... one day they will greet you , the other day they pretend they never knew you ... what a joke ... at least tell me what i did wrong ... IDIOTS!

I had to revise many of Java "for Web Applications" techniques , and had to know how the heck servlets actually work .... now thats the most interesting thing of the week .. much more interesting that people and their "bizarre" behaviors ...

JSP was on the menu as well because its unforgettable relation with Java ... and also how to set up an environment for testing before deployment ...

quite interesting ... programming in a "web-based" environment needs lots of attention, from design to coding ... so better be ready before you do real business with it ...

so far so good for life ... will be back soon ,,,

walslam ...

People & Behaviour : Claims & Disbelief

2007-08-24T08:58:00.000+08:00

Salam and peace ..

In the past few days , i have known some people that i have regret knowing ... people who will claim to be open-minded and intellectually fit for a debate ... but they turned out to be "hollow", cant withstand a talk, never actually try to understand, don't read , don't understand , don't "listen" , and don't bother to give a damn ....

So my question is : Why do you have to put yourself in that position??? and why do you ask for opinions if you cant accept them??? and why do you claim that you're interested to listen if you cant really accept other's ideas?? .... and if you think you don't need to know, then don't ask ...

but some people -these days- like to show something , but behave differently ... they raise slogans, posters, join groups , send speeches ... but still .... the belief in the idea isn't there i guess ..

and this type will really get my nerves "up and running" ... i feel sorry for the slogans , posters and shouting they make .. it is just wasted without belief in the idea ...

another problem ... with those types ... they like to run away from the main point ... making you feel that your an idiot ... or you aren't clear in what you say ... or that the idea was an illogical one ..

Just a thought to be expressed ... (incomplete writing ... to be structured later in time)

and Peace ....

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For the sake of the Nation

2007-08-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

peace and salam ...

and after some usual day at work ... I came to a discussion with many friends and other people ..

The discussion was about the identity ... and I'm referring here to where and what we belong to ... is it nation , race , religion or just idiots in this world??? ...

It really concerns me ... who am I?? and to whom or what do I belong to?

so after "years" of thinking and observation plus lectures here and there ... i came to think that we are actually "hanged" to some ideas without our consent or realization ... and thats quite amazing .. how can we be fooled by this ... all this time!!

We are told since we were young that : You are Sudanese ... you should be proud of it , I hear other say and write about countries ... Baladi! (Arabic) , Negaraku! (Malay) ... Patriotic Americans ... and they claim that they feel the existence of The Nation within their souls ...

but when we read history books ... we can really find out that all of these "Nations" are actually fake!! ... we are happy to be recognized by certain nationality , We Are Proud To be From This Country!!!! .. but lets be honest here ...

as Muslims ... we know that we are supposed to proud of one thing ... Islam ... and thats the highest priority ... nothing is more important ... nor nothing should be better nor we should be prouder with something else...

but they will tell you : Whats the problem?? Its my country!!! i was born there and i will die there ... and who are you to talk about my nation????

Well , lets assume you were born, raised, and lived in another country .. weirdly we will find this same problem ... that person who never saw his "Nation" will have this weird relation and attraction to it ... it has become part of his soul : he will tell

so ..we're coming closer ... and Gotcha!! ... now i know why we are raised into being nationalist ... its the Parents, school and Mr. Government who needs support based on some false feelings built into people .. "embedded" by others into our hearts ...

They will tell us since our early young age : The Nation, later when we are growing: The Nation ... so we grew up believing in the idea -as it sounds correct- ...

but there is a nation existed always and will continue to exist ... Islam ... a religion, a way of life , a system , a Nation by itself that we can identify ourselves with ...

our grandfathers died for the sake of this ... they never died so we will continue to be in this situation .... and if they died for other reasons in themselves .. then its their problem .. and they have died for the sake of a false idea as well... if that was the case ..

During the old days , this idea existed , but wasn't that strong .. it was based on race more than nationalism ... and it was covered by the greatness of the system that was based on Islam ... at least from the outside ... people believed that they are one ... until one day came those who separated this big power ... for their own needs ... and called each place by some name ... they wanted it like this of course for their own benefits ... but we continue to "swallow" their ideas without thinking ... we are born to be Nationalists ...

and today ... not many would like to think of it .. fearing they will loose the benefits they selfishly share with others ... going against the main principles of Islam , Which is : We should be proud of this religion ... and shouldn't be proud of a "worldly" thing ... the worst thing is : Its not just worldly but false as well ...

but the contradiction will occur when we think we can behave as nationalists but claim we are proud of Islam .. actually these two cannot co-exist .. as one disqualifies the other ...

We reached a level of following a nation's culture .. even when it goes against the basics of Islam ... now who will be responsible of this on the day , when we are asked ... do you think the question will be : Where is your passport??? or do you think Sudanese will be lined in one line ... Malaysians lined in one line ... Americans lined in one line????!!!! Do you think we will be asked why we fought over a Piece of Land because it was owned by another country??? or why killed our own people but not people from other countries????

If that was the case ... then we will have to be and do ....

all for the sake of the Nation ....

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NOTE: Nationalism is defined as the following : (for those who never heard of the term)

Devotion to the interests or culture of one's nation.
The belief that nations will benefit from acting independently rather than collectively, emphasizing national rather than international goals.
Aspirations for national independence in a country under foreign domination

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walslam .. peace

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Why Windows Gets Messsed-Up ... Computers(1)

2007-08-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

Peace ... salam ..

Level: Beginner - so if your an expert in the topic, you might provide feedback.

Welcome to the Linux world! ... this is what i have to say to those interested to try some new "Adventure" with another operating system.

An operating system is what runs your computer : Like Windows.

Now the question is: Can i change my operating system? ... and yes i tell you .. its easy to change your Operating system.

Now some will be thinking : Why the heck am i introducing Linux to people who don't recognize the word "Operating System" ... we'll easily answer : we never knew of operating system when we were at school either .. and no one was simple enough to tell us ... all will assume you already know about "software" and "installation" ... well i met people who don't really know what software installation was ... year 2006 - university level ...

an Operating system controls and starts our computer - it does the shutting down as well -

So what's the problem with Windows??? .... i might say for a simple person , its viruses and slow response after being infected with tonnes of spyware (some bad software) and hidden files (files that normal people don't care to see). These will lead after sometime in a slowness of the whole system. Its caused by carelessness in downloading garbage software, agreeing without reading the pop-up note or warning (and i don't mean the license agreement), trying some fancy wallpapers or screen-savers ... wandering around at un-ethical websites ... and downloading software from anywhere on the net .

most of the above are caused by the need to make your Desktop look "nicer" ... or add a new fancy tool that does nothing more than cute-looking stuff while it sucks down your bandwidth and slows the system.

so when you install new software ... make sure its safe ...at least from a known site, and don't think that an anti-virus alone can do all the watching ... it can help ... but not always ...

then ... too many applications (software)installed will just cause your system to become much more slower than you expect ...

the fancier you desktop is ... the more memory you're actually using ... which kills the system ...

try to stay simple with the looks of windows ... life isn't about how things look like , but how they behave as well ...

these what i can remember ... iv seen some torture their poor machines with garbage ... and then they will usually forget about the software installed after the trial ends ... well .. no one knows how to crack in the family ...

stay safe .. or you will loose that system and years of decoration ....

peace ... this shall be a series as well ...

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Sunday ... busy sunday ..

2007-08-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

what a day it was ... Sunday .. busy Sunday ...

went to campus .. found so many "changed" things ... a newly renovated campus ... good time to renovate ... The PM is coming i heard .. convocation on the way ... Ummatic week ... and everything looks nice ...

Still, I'll be stuck with the Industrial attachment ... not being able to enjoy most of these events ...

anyway .. it was a good a new Sunday at campus ...

the anti-smoking campaign ...

But there was something that never changes ... the student's view towards basic rules and attire ...

and finally iv let the yahoo messenger radio play ... now with some country ...

wlslm

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After a year of not net-social-izing

2007-08-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

Peace to all ...

and yah .. it really is ... i stopped meeting any of my net pals , friends and classmates online ...

but the problem is .. after this year .. i forgot who i had in my list ... and how did i got to know these people ... some were bizarre meetings ... people who aren't ideologically the same .. was i too fast in accepting people ???? ... simply yes i were .. i would get myself into knowing anyone ... but now the problem ... I don't remember them!!!! ... and i don't wanna see them either .. this one year was a total change for me ... but at the same time i felt sorry for eradicating them from my lists ... because some of them were invited by me ... and its not easy to cancel it just like that after an online virtual relation that stayed for more than 2 years ... but finally the decision was made .. and reduction began ... it all boils down to ideologies ...

thank god it was ... and this net-meeting business didn't work for me sometimes... iv considered it a waste of time ... although there were some people who turned out to be real good people ... but wasn't reflected in their profiles ... moral of the story?? look at the profile before you choose ... i don't have best of profiles ,... and i always thought my profile was contradictory ... but maybe thats me ... i have some contradiction with my own self ... and these contradictions are being resolved day-by-day ... hope so ...

but still ... when we meet or see profiles for the first time , we might find some people with really bad profiles .... but at the same time when you get to communicate with them ,,, you will find they have the same values you thought of them not having .. but they just tend to express it differently .. they express themselves in a way they see it "alright" ... some might be religious people ... but they left religion for the sake of "having their own lifestyle" ... which makes me think?? .. what made them leave the "old way"???

I think its how they see things ... and how they were told to do things .. and how they see others do some things ... quite interesting how people might change ... but the quality will stay with some ...

moral of the story ... i really don't understand people .. nor will someone understand the human beings .. unless we all try to follow some "Best lifestyle" ... it has been proven that lifestyles created by humans will never make you happy ... and thats why we have all these contradictions in our selves ...

Don't follow what you like ... follow the truth ... then you will find its actually what you like and what you have been searching for ...

The truth i found was Islam ...

Read about it ... read about the freedom it gives .. read from authentic sources not hatred-based sources .. and you will find what you always wanted .. peace in life ...

walslam ...

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"Satan , Me & The Wine"

2007-08-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

Salam and Peace to all ...

Extracted from my previous dead Blog:

A poem written long ago ... i have taken out some of it for some reasons ... enjoy reading ...

"Satan , Me & The Wine"

shining stars
plus golden wine
equals a night
that ended fine

my soul returned
to the upper skies
and there i saw
Satan "disguise"
he sat and looked,
his mind was hooked,
as angels praised
the mighty God

he tried to steal
a word or two,
but angels knew
their passion grew,
for secrets of heavens
they felt the blue

war was waged,
and fronts engaged
in a fight against the devil
who then escaped,

he came falling
through the stratosphere
and down to earth ,
filled with fear
he took a breath
began to walk
in a silent stealth

he found me then
lying on the the ground
with wine and grapes,
left behind

so i woke up,,
cup in hand
hand in cup,

he sat and drank
from my drink of death
the talk began
with "Hi my friend"
so i thought ,
was this my end ?!

"welcome to the devil's creed"
.. his second phrase
my mind was puzzled
within his maze,
he took me with a grasp
to his kingdom
" hell " ,
fire ,
rounded with glaze,
I stood and watched
as groups appeared
in front of my eyes
then - dis- appeared
I asked him why
he told me
"please"
"you are below the seven seas"
"where day is dark
and night,-as i suppose -
will never ease,"
"so shut your mouth,
I'll walk you through
this sphere-like world
where me and you,
as friends of course,
will have a great time
women , wine and more of those,
if not enough ...
increase the "dose"
(censored)
go straight up
to reach a door
leading to a place
not reached before,
feel the heat
of the lower part
feel the beats
of your loving heart,
(censored)
now let her lie
play a "lay"
the "lay" of fun,
joined by two
to be in one
and there you have
the pleasure of life
with women and wine
plus Satan - of course-
as faith decline
and the soul of yours
becomes part of... mine...

Well ... its an idea i had and expressed ... although it might contain some "offensive" content which i have deleted .... (for the sake of not getting myself into deep trouble) ... and sorry for the deleted parts ...

and peace to all ...

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WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOOOOOOR

2007-08-17T08:47:00.000+08:00

Salam and Peace to all ..

and Oh My God ... its friday ... so fast the week has ended ... because humans have opted for a seven-days week , but usually Saturday and Sunday are meant to be free .... and I mean Really free ... people usually do less , less work ... some will wake up late after some crazy Friday night , eat breakfast ... go and sleep again .. wake up , watch some series .. and then go back to sleep ... on Sunday ..go to some park or 'entertainment' center ... or continue to watch series ... the most will be going out shopping ...

this lifestyle can be acceptable if your a person who really work on the 5 days that you suppose to be working on .. and then have some time with the family ...

But I mean .. us .. the supposedly so-called students of this time ... i mean thats the a true waste of time ... and some will apply it .. like he just go to classes for 4 days and then end up having three-crazy-days ... Friday, Saturday and Sunday ...

Well ... if you are going to waste those days hanging around with friends and sleeping .. then its a waste and you shouldn't be asking why are we in living in such an undeveloped world .. and i mean specifically the Islamic world where teenagers do nothing ... nothing ... nothing ...

hang around , drink coffee , show your body , show your money , spend more money , and do whatever is not required or expected to be done by a Muslim teenager or in his 20'ties ..

How many times do we sit with ourselves and think ... ???!!! ... sometimes i feel some of us never think ... and don't recognize the word "PROBLEM" ... there is a problem ... no one thinks there is a problem .. and whatever unusual ... is just usual ... these days ...

I really don't know what we think about ...

is having a girlfriend or boyfriend?? a new mobile phone?? a new shoe??? ways to look cool??? getting a girl for a night-out??? thinking of ways to insult our friends??? fighting some position in some club or society???? is all what we think of ...... ?????

now "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOOOOOOOOOOOOR" ... we hear this song but never actually understand the meaning .. because we listen "just to look cool" ... isn't it??? do u guys actually know what garbage we listen to??? its garbage .. , most people who listen to these songs don't really know whats on the lyrics... they just saw some people in New York or whatever city .. and then they begin to imitate ... what a joke ... "WAZZZUPPPP MAAAAANNNNN" .. is all what they actually know ...
[The song is by linking park ... stop trying to remember it if you are trying ... listening to full song is not recommended ... I'm just taking out a phrase we all know]

quite a shame ... and by the way .. we should go go back and read about the Basics of Life ... this life will turn out to be nothing ... and days are "running faster" ...

i said basic of life .. because its actually the basics of Islam ... but Islam is life ... we have no life without it ... and a change is all we need .. i guess we need to change the way we see the world ... and that comes through reading .. which most people hate .. for no cause ... but if you don't read .. listen ... if you don't like MP3's .. watch ... if you don't like know ...

Then .... "ITS THE HELL YOU ARE WAITING FOOOOOOOOR"

by the way:

[[ I have never heard of holidays in the Empire days .. there was always something to do ... non of the scientist stopped research on weekends, nor did the prophet waited for the weekend to finish to spread the word ... nor did Salah-Ud-din went to shopping on Saturday before he went into battle with the crusaders]]

wlslam

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The Persona ...

2007-08-16T08:38:00.000+08:00

salam and peace ...

finally the long awaited Proton Persona ... is in the frontpage of TheSun ...

and wow , it sure looks good (although honestly i liked the sketches more, specially the colored sketch, and that was to be a hit if done, it would reach the level of BMW -in looks- ... but they opted for a back-end similar to that of GEN2...not thats bad ... )

From what i know the name aint new ... proton wira's name is Pesona in the UK .. if im not mistaken ..

anyway ...

waiting to see the real machine .. on the streets ... it looks stable and strong from the picture im seeing ...

and ya ... sure looks good to have one of those ...

From Proton WebSite

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The Federation ...

2007-08-15T08:51:00.001+08:00

Peace and salam ...

A very good morning .. for most .. but not for me ...

My application was rejected by The Federation ... - The culprit of the day - ...

A dream was again shattered ... and hope It will be true one day ...

Me -shall not- surrender to this Federation ... I will create my own Empire ...

.........

I was considered to be wrong when i followed what The Federation said ... They gave me an order , I followed the order , got the results as expected ...

and then was Blamed ...

what a scenario to be put on ... now i have to go back and reverse events in time .. so what ever i did according to what has been told by The Federation .... must be reversed ...

and who will do the reversing "responsibility" of many actions created ???? ...

Its ME ... and only ME ...

I am responsible for the mistakes of The Federation ...

and I must pay the price ...

.......

I have suffered a lot .... under oppression ... created by The Federation ... we used to live in hunger for some days ... do work for free ... had to listen to their preaching ... look at their extravagant lifestyle ... while they will make it hard for us to live ... all for the sake of The Federation

we must do what they want ... these are orders sent from the sky ... revealed to us by some divine source ...

"We must follow them ..." is what i remember most ...

They can hold our throats ... even take out our lives without being touched ... They are the Federation ... you have the right to remain silent ...

and when you remain silent ... its a sin...

you should have talked and defended yourself ... but when you defend yourself ...

how dare you defy the Federation!!!! ... will be the situation ...

How dare you do what is not expected ...??? why not become like all "Others" ...

but at the end ...

you accept it ... because they are "The Federation"

"Living is an Art by itself" Abddu says ...

(peace)
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2007-08-14T08:38:00.000+08:00

Peace to all mankind ... (salam) ...

Tuesday ... second day of the week ... best thing in this day will be : There are only three days left in the week ... by the time it finishes ... and since its already started ... we will assume it done ...

anyway ... according to stats and figures from past weeks meetings with so-called friends ... I've decided to go into hibernation ... its useless being active when all you get is a rejection of all ideas - be those idea suitable or not - ...

Its really hard to imagine that whatever you say is wrong ... and no matter how you say it ... still it becomes wrong ... now that i would like to call "Boycotting of Ideas" ... sometime we find people assuming something ... but once they get another ... they begin to act differently ...

and back to the so-called friends ... we will find that they increase everyday ... while the number of true friends is decreasing ...

There are people out there who needs or think they need something from you ... and in the process turn into so-called friends ...

While there are others who you need... and this is the opposite .. and by time you think they are friends ...

There are others who will display their "Other face" ... in certain conditions ... and thats good .. it gives you the chance of knowing them better ...

And there are those who have some relation to the previous: those who will act differently according to "Others" around them ...

now let me conclude this filtering of people ... do whatever you like, but please ... when it comes to respect ... that the only thing a friendship can hold on to ... once you loose it ... forget about being a good friend...

and with respect comes to accepting the other as he is ... you don't need to change the other ... if you don't like em ... leave em ... if the other is quite honest , clear and approves criticism ... criticize ... its not a mistake to criticize ...

Whatever written above is actually taught in many countries at school and i really admire people who are clear ... and criticizing ... and i hope we can be taught this as well ... because our fathers and mothers used to know this by nature ... but our generation seemed to have lost all the values our elders had ... and for that it needs to be taught i guess ...

anyway .. big topic here , presented my view ... and I'm really sick of thinking too much please people ...

conclusion: Me is hibernating to avoid the negative impact of human beings ... only this blog shall stay alive as a way of expression ...

and from http://glench.com (at least acknowledge the guy there)

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Disaster ...

2007-08-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

Peace and salam to all ...

well , this is the latest news here ... and i express my deepest condolence to all relatives of the victims ...
and what more than to say "inna Lillah wa Inna Ilaih Raji'oon" ...

usually we see cars and motorcycles ... but a bus???!!! ....

I think those bus drivers should be forced to follow the speed or get fired .. we have some who will go in crazy speeds even inside the city center or around it, ... not even caring for people who are standing up ... nor those seniors ...

anyway .. another page goes into the chapter of accidents ... a bad one ... assumed of worst ... in recent time ..

From the NST:

"IN what is probably the worse highway accident involving an express bus so far this year, 20 passengers were killed and six seriously injured when the bus they were in skidded and overturned at KM229 of the North South Expressway near Bukit Gantang at 4:45am today. "

and (peace)(salam) to all

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The city of Kuala Lumpur & Me 2....(MISUNDERSTANDING!!!)

2007-08-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

Peace to all and (salam) ...

Well.,,, I'm still sick , nothing changed , i cant even sit for more than hour without reaching a toilet ... but this shall not stop writing ... and today is a continuation of my experiences , and as you can see from the article , this is episode two ...

and this will also be from the negative part ...

and by writing this , i mean no offense , but to point out some of the things that needs to be pointed out ... and i would really expect someone to jump on my throat and tell "Why are you cursing our people" ... well its easy .. I'm not cursing no people .. Im just talking about some experiences that lasted for more than 18 years ... it happens about everyday to me .. and its time to express some of my views here ...

so the problem is : Misunderstanding ...

Wherever I go, or most places i go to , i will face this problem ... it seems like some here cant really handle more than one statement at a time ... so lets give a scenario

Me (at drink stall) : Tebu (sugar cane) please...
Seller: (he will begin to put the sugar in the cup)
Me: excuse me sir! , i would also want some Soya drink ...
Suddenly , and most of the time , its either il get 2 Tebu drinks or i get only one Tebu drink, or i may get a surprise look and a time-freeze where the seller will be looking at me and me looking at him ... and then i repeat the statement and happily move ...

this is a simple example , but sometimes the scenario ends up in loosing your money for something you didn't intend to buy and didn't purchase ... now thats a lose ...

another simple example that got many confused (me either) .. when you give some amount of money , suddenly you change ... like it was RM12.80, and you give 15 , suddenly you say ::ok i HAVE the 12.80:: , .... and time-freeze again ... eyes on eyes ... 2 minutes until the process resumes ... and finally you get out ...

Another misunderstanding (i will assume) , is giving directions ... honestly i never remember getting a direction correct ... sometimes yes .. but this sometime I'm talking about is 1% ... but rarely do I get a direction correct ... maybe its a curse that follows me ... but i never got one ...

so the question will be: why the misunderstanding??!!

I will try to brief it out:

1 - The person you talk to is probably thinking of something else while he communicates.
2 - The person you talk to may probably try to interpret what you say to him differently (although its clear what you say)
3 - The person you talk to is probably programmed to do a certain task "with no interference"
4 - The person you talk to is not really hearing what you say but is trying to interpret based on previous experiences with other "customers".
5 - The person you talk to does not really care about his "customers".
6 - There is a problem in listening (its impossible to everywhere).

whatever the cause is ... the customer is the loosing party ... because if I argue then I'm the bad "Other" who likes to argue ... and I spatutnya kata dulu ... although i have said so in a clear statement.

its not just with me but with many who face such situations , not once , but to an extent that some will check whatever before taking it ... assuming that it might no be what they wanted ...

issue closed till here ... if someone has some dis-agreement ... we might go for a "Proof-Of-Theory" around the city... to see with your eyes...and feel the lose of money ... lots of it ... from drinks to food, from marker-pens to medicine ... so when you order something ... PLEASE THINK AND PREPARE WELL before you make an order ...

Walslam ... Peace to all ..
Wrong delivery ... and trying to convince "The Customer"

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Sick...

2007-08-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

Peace to all (salam) ...

and ya sick i am ... i am sick today ..what a bad day ... woke up with my hand on my stomach ... a killer pain ... couldnt stand it while in the bus ... blew it later ... it is transforming into some kind of fever now ... aaaaahhhhh ... i don't wanna miss the weekend !!!!! and never will shall I ... so many activities planned ... going to the Library, meeting up with people not seen for a long time, getting to look at campus and all the walking species on it ... i really miss it ... campus ... campus ... campus ... and damn It!!! why cant we use emotions on this blog-spot ....

I can hardly open my eyes at the monitor ... headache-lahh ...

so bye bye for today .. no mood to write long articles ... walslam ... system shutting down, 3 ,,, 2 ,,, 1 ,,, its now safe to leave this blog ......

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2007-08-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

Peace and (salam) to all ...

Iv read one saying ...

"When you see my community afraid of calling a tyrant "Tyrant", then take leave of it (i think it means that there is no hope in it , and it should be left) ...

what do we understand from this??? do we go and live on another planet ... ??

well , i don't think so , but it has its own dimensions .. and one of these dimensions is : Advice ...

and this clearly mentions that advice is needed in a society ... ADVICE!! ...

but some of us may feel shy , or fear people for giving advice (and one of those... is me) .... but after reading this , it makes me hard to "shut up" anymore ...

it follows: We will be asked on the day of judgment of what stopped us from speaking on this and that .... and when the reply is "Fear of people" , then God will say : "It was more correct that you should have feared me" ....

but do keep in mind that there are ways to do it ... and a saying will be:
It is recommended that advice be private , and should not be a mean of humiliation ... so if accepted , then the purpose is achieved ... otherwise we have done and fulfilled our duty ...

but other questions may arise .... why do i have to disturb people who walk in peace??? who am I to give advice?? Am i that good to give advice??? haven't we heard of the proverb "He who doesn't have , cannot give" and the many possibilities that will happen once i open my mouth!,,,, true indeed that we live in a period where even advice is hard to give ...

now lets say you walk on the streets of KL , and you find people doing something wrong ... do you have the right to give advice????? .....

BUT WAIT!!! who told you to go search for people you don't know???? why not just give advice to the people around you -most of time - and those who you know .... but if those people near to you never get your advice ...then there is a problem somewhere ...

whats the meaning of friendship if its not sincere , and there is no honesty associated with it???

are we selfish enough to want "heaven" for ourselves ..... and only ourselves?

and honestly speaking ... i may be able to write this , but its hard to implement ... so lets begin doing this from now ... its time for us to change ... change is constant... and we never know when we will die ...

and life goes on ...

yoda once said: Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger; anger leads to hate; hate leads to suffering. I sense much fear in you.

wa (Peace) to all (salam)

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Cooling down ..

2007-08-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

Peace to all (salam) ...

It has been a busy day at work today .. had to revise and re-do a whole module , the most important module in a system which is the management module Not an easy task when you have to go and read back all those SRS papers and listen to a lecture from the director

so a fast day .. i dint even notice it was Thursday ... till they said tomorrow was Friday ..

what the Heck?? Friday ..when did we had Wednesday ???anyway .. a clumsy beginning for a day since morning ... woke up late

but thank god reached office in time , forgot my USB-device at home and later found out there were mistakes in the

Document we suppose to present , and thats why we got the lecture ... from the director ...

anyway ..

on the other hand , i learned how to manage anger during this part of life ... a success to some extent ...

so a thought was ?? do you wanna get kicked out from this company or what ??? once anger is there , evil will prevail .. as our grandfather yoda says ...

and this was achieved through following some theory ...

whatever happens was there to happen , its only you who decide the consequences .. i read this from some article ..

it worked and now life is happier than before .. so how to achieve this ?? lets take the example from the article read ..

lets say your brother spill coffee on your newly bought shirt , and you're going to work ... so there is a possibility that you will burst (into flames) .. blow up ... throw the cup on his face , get him injured , take him to the hospital , pay the price $$$ and get yourself into trouble with the boss of the company you work at , and your bro face will only recover in the next few weeks ...

DISASTER ... isn't it?

On the other hand , you can just cool-down, change the shirt and get your a** out to work , being late for 5 min or so and probably your boss wouldn't notice it ... still don't forget to tell your Bro to be careful next time ..

how about that simple example ??? .. so YOU decided how your day should go ... and the situation will treat you as you treat it

and this theory has worked to me now and for the many times recently when i nearly screwed my day ...

guess thats it for now ...

peace (salam)

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Hijab???!!!!

2007-08-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

In relation to the following ...

“Every day and night, I think about how the girls (sisters) need to change,” Sheika Lubna said.

well Sheika Lubna ... excuse me to use your statement and write my article .. but i will use in my own topic , and I'm not talking about unjustly-treated house-keepers ... but some of our own sisters ... our Muslim sisters who never change their behavior and attitude in public places ...

and don't worry feminists ... we will have another topic for men as well .. :)

so back to what behavior I'm talking about ...

1 - carelessness at shopping malls ... be it bending an L-bend, while wearing the so-called Hijab and a short T-shirt ... well girls ... this is called carelessness towards your own selves - maybe in their mind this world was created for them and they can be in any position they want at any place they desire .. if you don't care about your self .. do care about about the "weak" selves around you ...

2- considering the head cover as the full hijab is a very wrong understanding of the meaning ... hijab is covering the body according to some basic Islamic teachings and not about putting some piece of cloth over your head ...

The Hijab must be wide so that it does not outline the body of the woman and does not profile her body parts. It shouldn't be transparent or opaque.

3- If you still think that men should not look and they are the wrong-doers ... think of it logically ... and you will find us victims ..how??? we carry back with us many of the sins generated by looking at you ... and honestly there is no where to look at considering the increasing number of Muslim sisters who like to practice the game of (show me myself mirror on the wall, i know im the best of them all) ...

4- Islam states clearly what should be covered ... covering isn't just about covering the skin ... its covering the dimensions .... cannot add pictures here ... but many around this capital consider putting some (0.2 MicroCm) material can do the cover-up ... WRONG! ... i bet we can see whatever there is to be seen ...

5- and there those who create the joke ... i pakai hijab kat masjid lah (i wear the hijab at the prayer place only) ... well well ..we all know that Allah is everywhere and that we are accountable for what we do at any place ... what a joke ... and it only proves how light we take the basic Islamic teachings ... and the worst part ... as Muslims we are suppose to correct those acts ... but that never happens ... its a crime to give advice ...

6- Whats the difference between a Muslim sister and any other ... and by the way a sister is an Islamic word i like to use to refer to the other part in the gender's list ... and the answer , i see no difference if we continue to accept todays appearance of sisters as a usual thing ... IT A'INT USUAL ....

[[[[[So why are you extremist telling us what to wear??? we know our responsibility and we don't need your advice .... we know our limits ....some may say ...]]]]]

... it will only depend on you ... no one can force you .... and if you know the limits we wouldn't need all this post ... but I'm sure i was not in a "crazy" mode when writing this ...

........To be continued some other day ... but i think this is should be enough to clear the point ....

Do listen to this if you still haven't ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4jQi0Gjy3M By Ummahfilms

walslam (peace)

Different types of modern hijabs

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Some stupidity ...

2007-08-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

Peace and salam to all ...

good evening all ... its 8.++ here and another good day at work ... with lots of designing , CSS , forms and javaScript ... which is part of my life at the moment and for the next coming month's till November ...

and in this hour should be dedicated to the poor ... poor people ... people who we find on the streets , lying around ...i have recently read on some newspaper that a crime happened in japan .. a gruesome crime ... some teenagers set fire on an old man ...why???? because he was on the street ... they claim he was as useless as garbage ... he was homeless thats why ... but thank god he found a fountain ... and suffered severe wounds ... i really feel sad for the old man ... but regarding the boys .. they were trying to "burn" their responsibility ... what a shame .. they probably live happy , eat and drink , go to night clubs and play some cool games on their high-tech Japaneses computing machines .... is this what you learn in school -boys-???? or ethics was never part of our lives????

sadly .. i thought japan was 100 years more developed than any country, and it has reached a level where humans and machines can live happily ever after .... but it seems this "new world" isn't any better ...

why will someone want to do such an act??? burn a poor homeless human being??? aren't we suppose to be humans with feelings???? but to be honest , the more we believe we have developed, the more parts of hell we bring to this world ... because development needs some base (such as religion) to be useful ... but as long as the small corrupted mind of a human being is there to exist ... we can never be sure how many more years this earth can handle ... just observe the weather these days around the world ...

and the most pathetic of all was the reason behind the shocking act was : They considered him rubbish and useless .... well boys, i guess he might be useless, but a person who does such an act is not just useless ... but a hazard to other lives ... and should be isolated for awhile until a recover is confirmed ...

there is are proverbs for this case .. (for these boys who claim to clean "garbage")

"The only thing that ever consoles man for the stupid things he does is the praise he always gives himself for doing them."
-Oscar Wilde

and

"When a stupid man is doing something he is ashamed of, he always declares that it is his duty."
-George Bernard Shaw
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Back to the basics (Needed!!)

2007-08-08T08:45:00.000+08:00

Peace to all (salam) and A very good morning on this warm heated day ...

Everything going fine - as expected - and feels good to be at office with no drop of sweat on a day like this ...

Interestingly what i found out yesterday ... a discussion about a state... whether it was an Islamic or a Secular ... and the discussion went on and on ... till i noticed a new term - for me at least - Islamic Theocracy , it means a state administered according to religious laws and authority While on the other hand, A secular state is ruled according to human-made rules and regulations (but in the discussion : a state that is not administered according to religious laws or authority) ...

so this should be an intro for us today ... well ladies and gentlemen, Islam is a way of life (fact), and its a system by itself (fact), it has some personal obligations and obligations that can only be done in a group of Muslims like the Friday prayer,and the two celebrations of Eid in the year .... for example ... but the personal obligations are much higher in number and impact ; such as honesty, sincerity, respect , generosity, ..etc so a conclusion to this, if a Muslim was to live in an Islamic or Secular environment, it will depend solely on his own behavior ... if people don't pray one day .. he should pray ...as long as he believes in it ...so i guess its time for our honorable scholars to stop thinking of extending their social status and begin preparing some good guidelines on "How To Make A Better Muslim" .... education is the key to religion more than any politics ... or hidden agendas ... lets be clear about stuff, we lack basic knowledge of Religions ... Islam be it or any other religion ... so these people talk about authority ... they like it and they want it ... i think its time for us to consider the basics rather than "covering our heads"... shutting our ears ..while eating nasi lemak , just look around you and you will see a corrupted society that is prone to a not-so-good future ... Its time that we really see Islam as it is ... we can have a so-called Islamic government with not that much of number of Muslims practicing Islam. Meanwhile a so-called secular state that has a bigger number of practicing Muslims... and this is how i see it ...

and thats for it ...

When politics talk

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The city of Kuala Lumpur & Me (series) ....1

2007-08-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

Peace to all of you all out there ....

as an intro to this will-be controversial issue regarding KL'ians ... and those who may as well be freaked out reading this from a non-Malaysian ...

Let me clear out some points ...

Iv been living in this country - and specifically - K.L. for the past 18 years ... and for that period im sure that i know enough to talk about here ...

K.L is one of the smoothest-going capital iv been to , as i was at Abu Dhabi , Amman, Bangkok, Cairo and our own Khartoum ... so its quite unique in the sense that its expectable ... you can actually expect what will happen once you plan your journey ... it will be a quite journey for sure ... no one will ask you anything nor will you have to ask anyone ... life indeed is peaceful ...

but whats annoying sometimes are those "dead zombies" walking around town ... and I mean those humans who walk without activating their "eyes" ... they will be walking in their own world ... not looking at anything in-front of them ... hitting other people , bags, animals , trolleys , and might even step on your foot without even a single look of sympathy towards the "shocking" pain encountered .... and i must say ... hitting a person isn't something usual ...... some old ladies pushing their way to the counter ... causing a stampede remembers me of Tarzan's PS-1 adventure game when some wild beasts try to push Tarzan off the level .... or when you're waiting to cross the road when suddenly you find someone standing over the "10*10 cm" square of land between your feet and the road ...

but what to say ... live your life here ....

another thing to expect from some is the never-said word "Excuse Me" ... said "Maafkan Saya" ... in Malay ... a world rarely used as in English ... so someone can wait behind your back unnoticed till the end of days ... then giving you that angry look when you do notice ... So maaaaannn ... why didn't you say so ...

Its quite amazing ... you probably end up reaching office after hitting nearly 50 human beings on the way if you don't actually move in a zig-zag path ... and open your eyes REAL wide ...

and finally ... Maafkan Saya for speaking about my daily experiences ... (Maafkan saya means Im sorry - in this context)

walslam alikum ... (and Peace To all)

2007-08-07T12:25:00.001+08:00

Introducing myself here ... in a portrait-like picture taken by my sister long ago ... 2005 , i wasn't that angry by the way .. but the photoshop effect made me look REAL mad ... remembers me of "Myself" ...

I was just trying to add this to my profile, as i had to host it somewhere ,

why isn't there a direct upload feature anyway??!! ... But no problem ...

The time will come when we can host whatever possible on the net (remote sites) ... at extreme speeds never thought of .... ooooooooooooooo ... i'm waiting for that time and i hope it will be before the "death of mine" ...

walslam (and peace )

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2007-08-07T08:56:00.000+08:00

peace to all (Salam) ...

The month has been quite exciting , with many activities ... still, problems were here and there ...
and for a beginner's topic, for Computer Science students at the IIU, The Industrial attachment is one of the greatest periods in my study life ... if your lucky ... it can be as bad as hell, so be careful when choosing a company ...

its still morning ...

right at the office ... an empty office , alone ... hmmmm .. thats like an intro to some horror scene , isn't it .. or its just the life of many "employees" ...

we have some bad habits that need to be changed .. and change comes from within ... so coming late is a bad habit that needs some change .... to make a point there

Another behavior i noticed from our country-mates ... they like to complain ... this government and that government , secular is rejected, Islamic is rejected , communist is rejected ... so what the #@$%$#$ (ehemm ) do YOU want ???!!!!

we will find people shouting out there about their governments and lack of development ... well , analyze for awhile and you will find that most problems are caused by "The Society" .... where do you think these governments came from ??? .. aren't these governments the product of a "Bad Society" ... and ya ... "Bad Society" ...

so the next time we think of blaming others .... we better look at our selves ...

and a re-invention of a proverb .... "Blame yourself BEFORE you blame others"

.....................................Cooling down the temper again...................................

Peace to you all ....

2007-08-06T10:29:00.000+08:00

Peace to you all ....

yah ..this will be my first statement to those reading ... i came to write here for peace and to show some peace ... its all about peace .. nothing shall be directed in this blog towards hate ... i dont like it and nor do any of us can handle the consequences of hate ..

hmmmm... i would also like to thank those who gave us the idea to express ourselves to the world ... out there ... and thanks to all the bloggers around the world for keeping em running ...

well .. thought of this a first post .. will be back with much more from computer science , music, religion politics and some of sports ... these are what i like most in this world ...

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