"A disposable helping machine"

salam and peace to all ...

tomorow will be the presentation .. im supposed to present what iv done in the past 4 months .... ayaaaaa ... i dont know from where il start and how will i conclude it ...

it has been a wonderful time .. specially when you get an office at the 16th floor of a building where you can read as much as you like without a single fly interfering ... no people, no noise , no garbage, no feelings, no idiots, nothing ... just you and your materials ... i guess i will miss the office here ...

Iv just read different blogs, the bad news .. iv known these people for a long time .. by faces .. not by names .. so i browse through these blogs .. and get the feeling i never knew these people ...

so many examples ... like the blog of many of my so-called class mates ... whom i never even knew their names ... although we meet at corridors all week ... anyway .. who cares laaa ...

and even if you i do care to know ... it will be a disapointment that i get ... its really hard to get into people these days .. they have different excuses to "dispose" you ... even the basic behaviour that we expect from a muslim or a normal human being does not exist in many from whom iv known ... and i mean saying "Alslam alikum" .. plainly .. not "Alslam alikum wa rahmatullah , how are you today" ... i just want you to tell me : "alslam alikum" ... how hard is that damn it!!!! .... not even a smile do you get from people you see for 3 years ... but anyway .. it was good to know that they are expressing themselves somewhere ... with othe people ... and i mean on the net ...

its the last semseter .. and there is no hope of changing anything at our study place .. i was happier anyway ... its really bad to know or feel that you never existed in a place although you were there for about 3 years ... and im glad i ended it those 3 years ... not more ... my friends were the books and my CPU ... plus my digital musical instruments :) ... who wants a better life than that! .. and who can forget the sincere engineering students who made my life better at a university "level" .. although im from the computer science department ... i have to admit that most and i mean propably all of my friends are from other faculties and departments .. a really unusual situation made possible ...

usually in every department there are groups who will stay together .... not in department i was at ... i dont believe it myself!!!!

no matter how nice you become and how helpful you be ... you will be treated like any other disposable item ...

we shouldnt be saying this in a university level by the way ... maybe im too emotional ... but the truth .. there is no feeling of friendship or wahatsoever ... its all based on "If you have what i need then you will give me what i need and you will be disposed later" ..

its all based need-n-benefit ...

its either you are from a specific category .. or you have what they need ... even with all that you might fit ...

what a waste of time for me .. and they told that in a university , you will understand things better ... yah i understood .. i understood many things ... negative and positive about humans ... butit was a waste of time ... as i wished that i will meet someone who will respect as a person .. not as a helping machine ... or maybe .. "A disposable helping machine" ..


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The FYB day! (its FYP ;)

Alslam and peace to ye all ...

It was the FYP showcase .. the day i have been waiting for since last year's showcase ... our "seniors" will show their final year projects and we decide ... we vote and we encourage ... or we may continue and enhance their works ...


There was a very tight race between 2 projects really,

1 - The Robots: an assembled robot from different parts fitted with a microchip, camera and can be controlled with wires ...

2- The Boolean toolkit ... which is a software that can generate truth tables and circuits diagrams from some input of AND OR XOR ... etc

These were both fascinating and I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw em ... running successfully ... except for those cockroach's-thing-like sensors ... which will go into nothing when hitting a v-shaped corner ... but building 2 robot models is a success by itself, assuming students with no electronics knowledge .. except for the famous Appendix-A of our computer architecture and assembly language book :)

As for the boolean toolkit, it was an interesting idea, and i always liked teaching tools that will make the student's life easier ... it can be actually used in Logic Design classes ..
It was a good day .. and all the best to the others such as the groovy VOIP and the WiMAX simulation (although i didn't see the simulator running ;) )

Now .. its contemplation time for our own project ... im stuck with so many ideas and need the idea that will sure succeed .. there is no place for a disaster or unfinished project .. it MUST be done ... and i hate taking risk when it comes to projects ...

My industrial attachment presentation may be done next week .. and its really unpredictable since i have no idea of procedure or Q n A session ... good luck to myself, i really need an A, not less , not less,, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less .....

I WILL!!!!

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Death Cross : Masjid Jamek

Alslam and peace ...

and as the title says .. its a death cross ... i mean crossing of a street ... people like to cross that street in a rush, sometimes dangerously ... and i really hope that nothing happens there ... i mean the street directly under the LRT station and leading to Masjid jamek ... there is a traffic light .. but some like to fight with time (and death) ... while rushing to cross that street ... i really feel that cars have the right to move ... so if an accident do happen ... blame the idiots ...

anyway ... feeling happy these days ... got my hands on a new programing language , the name is Python ... i really recommend you to try try if you are interested in programming languages ...

the weather is rainy .. too rainy ... people are people and me is me ... nothing new .. same life ... same looks of people ... same food im eating ... same route i take to work ... same daily routine ...

On these days it happened ... im oppressed ... discriminated and insulted by someone in a higher level than me ... a lecturer .. and this is not the first case of this kind ... it happened the same way with a previous lecturer .. i really hope those idiots will understand that there is no place for racism within campus ... just because im not from the same country ... it means you can ignore me like that .. Damn It!!!!

but, i can always write that negative report at the end ... i will this time ... i had enough ... and if the report doesn't work ... a debate will ... i hate fightings ... but no one will take my marks like that ...

anyway ..

who cares!!!!


Garbage......


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Slap on the face!!!

Salam and peace ...


How ye all??? hope fine ...

so back again to writing, ... after some busy weeks ... finally the industrial attachment or practical training will come to an end ...

presentation should be coming week ... and FYP , final year project ... here we come ...

about the slap on the face ... it happened yesterday ,,, when i was called to help some people, but when i went there .. it was as if they tried to tell me ... what are you doing here and who needs you??? although i was there to help and they knew nothing of what they were supposed to do ...

ahhhhh .. students oh students ... never change huh??? but that got me real mad ... i mean someone comes and tell you ; hey! i here to do work for you .. you shut your damn mouth, look at him and then insult him by looking at him without answering his questions, nor do you respect that he left his stuff, and came to you ... garbage i say!!! ... yah those people are garbage and deserves no respect .. i really regret leaving my place, thinking of a way , going to the lab to get my a** kicked like that .. AAAAAArgghhhhhhhhhhh ... anyway ... it will not happen again ...

anyway .. finished my 80-pages report ... hope supervisor will like it (or have time to read it!!)

and now stuck for an FYP idea .. an fyp is final year project by the way ...

day 25 is coming of this month .. and there are about 30 days in a month ... all of them are normal, except that i have 3 events going on this day .. ayaaah ...dont know how to organize lah ... and none of the 3 is sacrifice-able ...

i have about 5 month left at university ... and every day that passes feels bad since i wish life will become like it was 2 years ago ... friends are decreasing, loyalty and respect are gone ... i don't believe anyone anymore ... life isn't as interesting ... well maybe i'm the problem ... and the saying goes "We Are All Part Of the Problem" ...

and yah ...

We are all part of the problem ...


i had so many things to write about before a week ... it faded away .. next time i'l carry a small note with me ... :) .. just in-case i forget ...

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The Eid (Celebration After Ramadan)

Alslam

Selamat hari raya and Eid Mubarak to all


It has been a very fast Ramadan indeed, and many will agree , and many will know that days are going real fast which is a sign of the "end of days" ...

anyway .. Ramadan has been nice and spiritual as always ... well at least at the begining :)

It has been a wonderful month for me, full of reading and writing for the project related to the industrial attachment .... and yeah sure .. im stuffed with JavaBeans ... it was all about Java and J2EE .... welll ... nothing like what we had during courses, its quite intensive ... someone has ot read different technologies at the same time and find the relation between these technologies and create something new ... well .. sort of ..

anwyay .. 1 month to go, shouldn't be that hard after finishing 4 months ....

back to our favourite Ramadan .. well ... its hard for you to notice it when you are in the city ... except when its time to eat ...

and saturday should be our favorite celebration of the year ...

so Selamat Hari Raya to all friends and foes .... wu Eid Mubarak

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Africans ... and Malaysia :)

Alslam .. and peace ..

well ... again , we read the newspaper and see the phrase "2 Africans ....." or "African caught ..." ...

its really annoying to see reporters ignore the fact that Africa is not a country ... maybe they ignore it because they want to ...

Im a Muslim (mixed African) ... and it really annoys me when i see that title ... i mean why not specify a country .. or do you think that "whatever round is a ball" .. or a "watermelon"!!!

i mean respect the 50++ African countries, all have different identities ...

but i agree with the Kepong people that having Africans in the neighborhood is disturbing... wait!!! did i just say Africans????

So please know that Africa is separated, and we also hate some of these "Africans" as much as you do for their involvement in drugs, money "laundering", cheating , "whistling" crossing women and getting drunk ... plus their ir-respectful behavior towards anyone who is smaller than them ....

and we hate them more than you think ... we hate seeing them, because they tarnish the image of whoever looks like an "African" ...

i myself was insulted many times for looking like them .. although i was raised up in a middle-eastern style of a family .. we are Arabs, my mother is an Arab ... my father is an Arab that looks like an Indian .. and i think i got the African look from my Granny ...

and by the way .. not all Africa is bad .. although majority is ... you have north and south African countries ...

so don't generalize when you hate "Africans" ... there are those better than you ...

just be careful ... don't be racist ...

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Racism in the Masjid

Alslam N peace ...

today .. on this Friday ... i got the shock of my life ... a depressing moment ... a tragedy ... a disaster ... its ....... its ..........

Provoking Nationalism from inside the Masjid... by an Ustaz ... and for those who don't know; Ustaz is a teacher .... or a person who gives talks ...

yah ... Nationalism and Racism from inside the Masjid ... he was talking about a certain race .. making it superior over the others ... mixing Islam with a race or a nation ... talking as if he never studied about how Islam separated itself from a certain nation or race ... and the famous hadith "There is no difference between an Arab and a non-Arab, except in fear of Allah"

He interpreted the hadith that says: give sadaqah to those near to you, by saying we should give sadaqah first to those from our race .... forgetting that sadaqah (charity) was for muslims ... the nearer Muslims .. and it aint about a race ...

no wonder people grow up with these ideas although they are Islamic-based ...

no wonder we can never Unite ... no wonder Islam and the Ummah will never be a reality ... and no wonder that no one noticed that he was wrong in what he said ...

and no wonder that 90% of people here dont understand the basics of Islam ...

so his speech was based on Racism that was generated from the Nationalist ideas he grew up with ...

What a disappointment .. Garbage ... and i was going to hear a motivating talk for the muslims ...


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Society ... and men

Alslam and peace to all ...

The last time i wrote was about women, and i know that whoever read that post will label me as a "sexist" and discriminative against the female sex ... well it isnt like that .. if you read thoroughly you will find find that im talking about facts ... at least from a point of view. ..

anyway .. i have waited for a long and not written this one .. so it will be neighboring that topic ...

let the show begin ...

Men Oh! Men ... i have always looked at ourselves as a sex-oriented creatures .. yah .. borrowed from the object-oriented concept in computer science ... once a friend of mine , considered a secular person , gave me a hint .. he said: as long as we are sex-oriented, we will never advance nor succeed ... and yah true he was ... after long thinking , i found out this was our major problem as men that will put us into so much trouble ... some of us will see any object from his own sexual point of view ... like innocent apples, bananas , flower vases .... they all represent sexual objects .. and this will be "inherited" as well to cover women ... and our view towards women as sex-objects ...

This a big problem that i use to have ... there are many causes for it .. and the number one cause is the way we are raised ... some of the fathers will have this feeling towards women ... at least since im coming from an eastern culture .. so i can say this .. some fathers will raise their kids as if the daughter was something else ... and not a normal human .. from here come the confusion ...
even our societies response to a divorced and working women as "not clean" ... what the hell !!!

I mean lets look at it from this side ... what does a women who was raped has to do with the crime??? we still have some people who will blame a raped women for being raped ... and those are men ... and then there is the type (im from this type and trying to change) ... that will be blaming them for whatever happens ...

true we are need to change as men ... and our look towards the other sex must change ...

the problem worsened when people mixed culture with religion .. some cultures will "hold the women from the throat" and wait for her to do a mistake ... we'll in Islam we always had women talking , and expressing their problems ... but when we mix culture and label it as Islam ... just to satisfy our grandfathers desires .. we only tarnish the good, flexible and peaceful way of Islam itself ...

but there is still that infinite loop ... one friend once said ... "repair" the men .. the women will automatically be "repaired" ... hope this become true .. and according to stats it is true ..


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