Its Virtual ...

Alslam - peace -

Finally, blogging from a virtual machine running Linux ....

finally the vmware is running and connected with the world ...


major work and analysis going on here .... clusters is the category for our Final Year project .. experimenting with clusters and parallel computing ... will post more details later on ... the project will focus on light clusters that will ease the job, we will test some programs on it later ...

anyway .. life has been going on well with the lappy top.... can stay up all night with a wirless connection ... this is the life i was missing ..


anyway .. gtgo back to work ...


walslam ...

Its a BenQ!

peace ...salam ...


Finaly

Its a BenQ, best offere and specs as well ... couldnt resists it ...

My New Machine

Our 2 days at the PC fair ended up in a chase .... chasing the black BenQ ... wherever you go, its always that white one ... i don't know how many white notebooks are out there untouched ... but i wasn't easy surrendering to the white one ... its just too white i guess ...

after some wild search ... got my self on a Centrino duo 2.0Ghz machine, coz i needed speed, not battery life or what-so-ever ... installed the 2GB RAM directly ... it came with the neat GMA950 and normal high-end specs such as dvd-writer, SPDIF, .... and hey! .. a built-in webcam ... a 120GB HDD

it came empty though, you can only look at the BenQ JoyBook purple logo ... so i opted for the better windows XP ... not crazy to take windows vista ... it will suck up all the resources im trying to buy here ... anyway ... some development will be done using linux, so LINUX RULES!!!

another thing was that it's Driver CD was Vista-Based, so i had to go back and download all of the winXP drivers ... but thanks to the BenQ's Rich-website (free promo to benq)... i could easily get the drivers for XP ...




and with this .... it like a marriage ...

now have to go and learn how to take care of it ... ;)


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December ... Wuzaaaaaaaa

Heyyyyy .. yo ....... peace and salam to ye all ...


Its december ... has been a long time since i wrote something here ... was quite busy ... too busy actually ...

but finally we have agreed on a topic for the final year project, it should be something like a Portable Linux Cluster .... its an instant cluster that should be easily prepared, we will analyse performance and stuff ...

and finally ... i should be announcing my marriage ... yah ... quite something like that .... am getting a laptop ... finally ... yahoo!!!

will it be a BenQ joybook? a Compaq presario? or an Acer?? ...
will it be centrino or an AMD?

These are the questions that will be answered tomorrow at the PC fair KLCC 2007


Il be back later, probably writing next article about my new machine (or wife) ...



walslam .....

simple things .... bad approach

Alslam and peaace ...


long ime havnt written anything here ... maybe its the end of a something usually when i get carried away by a new schedule , now im a new schedule, no more industrial attachment schedule no more company and more reaching office before 8.30 am ... its all over .. still virtually since i need to finish my trademark 5 month an 6 days as stated int the contract between me and the department .. it says 5 month and 6 six days which means that .. there is no way of comromising those 6 days unless by force as it seems ...

anyway .. back with another simple funny visual basic project to finish ... managed to do so in a very short time ... hours maybe ... i was going mad over how to generate data which microsft excel can understand, thought of XML, CSV .. finally decided to reprogram everything within excel itself using VB-A... and that solved the problem ... dumb huh! ... and then came up those simple stuff that u take hours to program ... i was thinking of using an array and then pass the array , then extract those cells ... it then turned out to be direct .. i didn't need to extract nor use an array .. just use the value direct as an input from the user .. dumb again ... but this the life in programming .. simple stuff .. but bad approach makes it tough as iron ...

and again ... the our programming class has been delayed just another day .. i thought it was 14th .. turned out to be 15th ... then i came and found postponed to 16th .. like what the heck was that!!!

anyway .. im so into it that i was never angry about it .. still fighting to get into that class although im not part of the "wanted" ... they want other category of students ... but its interesting .. and i hate limiting students to stuff ... while providing other stuff which are much interesting ... fight goes on to get into that class ... and by the way .. those "wanted" havn't been around .... what a useless category ... they seem to think that they have time to learn ... well .. my advice ... better learn earlier than your age ...

so far ... life has been good ... with a bit of interference here and there , but generally it was nice .. scheduled .. more output ... less sleep and more coding ...

somone came up to me and said: hey .. i need a full, reported , tested and comprehensive project .... hmmmmm ... no comments here .. but this attitude will help no one ...

people are revolting ... again ... why? because authorities have pushed us too much ... we cant really live life like this .... why the heck is everything expensive??? this will lead to people being more pressured at work and home ... better find solution fast ... its all over the world ... petrol prices going up ... although many rich people are getting much more richer ... what type of formula is that??? there must be something wrong .. wake up!!!!


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EPL: Arsene Fights for our rights!

Alslam alikum ...

Hmm ... till when will we be judged by our passports??? why not by capabilities and effort ... why the limitation??? although I'm a Manchester United fan, but i wont be blindly following what Sir Alex Ferguson says ... He wants some "home-grown" players!!! .. i mean what the heck??? ,... for the first time i will have to agree with Arsene Wenger, although he has his own deceiving comments, but this time he said the truth ... he doesn't "grade" players according to their passports... its based on what they do on the pitch ... im sure all fans will love to see a "good game" .. not a country-based game which focuses on some "home-grown" players ... and if that "home-grown" is capable, he will be on the team ... if he's not, he shouldn't be on the team ... why are they trying to kill the EPL with such statements??? we as world-viewers like the EPL as it is ... any change will change the viewers ... i don't mind watching "British" players ... but the condition is simple .. if they know how to play , let them play ... if they are too busy with "Beer", too slow, cant handle a ball and don't like to be criticized, let them be and they aren't gonna play ... so salute to Arsene for knowing the meaning of a globalized world , guess the "British" are still unaware that Europe is the European Union now (EURO), and there is no difference between these countries ... but unfortunately ... they haven't learnt from what racism did to some other football leagues ... football is a game that teaches us how to think much more openly ... when it comes to club-level, so lets keep the spirit high .. and stop treating all of the other-world as "Foreigners" just because they don't carry a passport that you carry ... "Globalization" for God's sake ... Wayne Rooney is good because he is good, not because he is British or whatever ... and i bet if he wasn't good, sir Alex will not put him in that position, we all remember how beckham left, wasn't he "Home-grown"??? doesn't he deserves a better treatment as an excellent "home-grown"?? ... the beauty of the EPL is in its cultural mixture ... if england wants to build a team then it should tell its younger players how to play the game and how to respect others as well ... stop drinking and focus on football...

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loosing concentration ... women

Alslam and peace to all

I really wonder! ... We are living in a really “Illogical” time

I’m talking about the latest statement by Ustaz Nik Aziz's regarding some Muslim Women...

Suddenly you see those so-called "feminists-men" popping up and attacking the guy for expressing himself...

He said that (as in the news)... those Muslim women - because of their over-exposing attire- cause him (or men in general) to not concentrate on their sleep and daily prayers...

Now my question will be: what’s wrong with that statement???!!! ... Just for a minute lets forget who said it... And focus on its meaning… leaving the politics behind … just for a moment

Isn’t it true that over-exposed Muslim women distract Muslim men??? Be it from anything... Not just sleep and/or prayers ... bring me any normal “MALE” who will not be impressed by the bodies those women who like to grab the attention... those sexy-as-ever women of today … where any women is beautiful to some extent … and alhamdulilaaaaaaaaah

This brings us to a question ... why are Muslim women over-exposing their bodies these days??? Is it freedom, ignorance, marriage, bitching, fame, idiot-icity! ( I mean Dumbness, that was my own word there)

Now back again …. Bring me any normal man who isn’t distracted by semi-naked women … and if you do bring me one... then I will assume he is either a homosexual or a “Hypocritical homosexual” … or maybe some freak who was just “booted” by another woman... I will give him 2 days – in that situation- and he will then be “repaired” …

So those who jumped on the Ustaz’s throat for saying this are either politicians seeking their own good, or either a more dangerous type … the type who will like to see sisters in this way... Including family members!! He will enjoy himself and there will be more than enough for him to see … and believe me there are people of that kind … they will promote an idea even if it was against their own religion as long as they get their dirty benefit from it …

We are not telling Muslim women to be like afghan women with a full Burqa … or like those middle-eastern women-in-black … whom I really personally respectively respect both by the way … but just cover yourself decently … cover yourself from the hell-fire that Allah has warned us from getting ourselves into … if not from hell-fire … then just respect yourself .. It won’t be nice for people to look at you as a bitch or something … because if we go some years back we will actually notice similarities between what prostitutes wore in that time and what some Muslim Women wear today … there is no difference really! … if you don’t believe … watch any movie from the 90’s to see what the difference between what Muslim sisters wear and what those prostitutes wore in that era … I’m being frank here … sorry for insults ; although I don’t give a damn! As they say …

So the next time you (sister) prepare to go out and look at the mirror, don’t look for what expose (don’t buy it anyway) … you will only sin more and get people with you to sin … and that sin will be doubled to your sin … we know you have a beautiful #$%%$%$#% (whatever, I deleted this for decency) … so don’t try the “proof-by-concept” theory on your bodies …

I would love to hear about what causes women to behave and wear what they wear today… if you have any arguments don’t forget to pass them as comments as im still searching for a good answer …

“One point to add: if you’re a sister who thinks Hijab’s meaning is to cover your hair or head, please go back and read about Hijab, because its more than that … “

Alslam and peace ...

They have convicted me of being a secular, of being living in the dark and of being a lost soul...

Hmm ... whoever said that don't understand what im talking about ... im talking about total freedom ... once my friend said ... we cant "taste" anything until we are released from what we are tied to .. so we asked him: what are we tied to?? and what do you mean?! .. he said a human is tied to his own false and unstable ideas ... like culture, people ideas, people saying and some fantasies created by peopleThis life must be enjoyed, as well as we prepare ourself for the hereafter ... but as long as we are tied to some human-made ideas .. we will not be able release ourselves ...

there are so many things that hold us ... such as the axis of sex (borrowed from Mr Bush's phrase: "axis of evil"), we are all going around that axis anyway.. it seems that many are wasting precious time tied to this natural axis ... which i call the axis of sex ... we see it everywhere , we talk about it all the time ... we read about it and try to discover it .. it wastes precious time of the many who are obsessed with it ... i mean we are "tying" ourself to it??? .. much more than we should .. i agree its a natural behavior liked, but its too much ..

then comes our own invention: culture, do this and do that!! .. when you ask why? they will tell, shut your mouth idiot, your grandfathers and grandmothers did so and so .. so you have to follow it ... well ... wait .. excuse me!!! ... why do i have to do it??? isn't it their own idea for their own time??? they wanted to do it ... so they did it ... i don't want to do it .. so i don't do it .. simple logic here ... but still people are so obsessed with it as well .. but in the still "conservative" areas you will suffer if you ont follow what people say .. be it wrong or right...!!

we think if these two "ropes" were un-tied .. we would live a much better and stable life ...

We have other goals in this world to achieve .. and a better later life awaits... heaven .. a never ending life ...

This is what i think of as freedom in this time .. but as long as those two elements control our life ... it will be a miserable one ...



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Final IA presentation

Alslam and peace ...


Wooooohooooo.......It ended .. finally , the industrial attachment final presentation, i was really nervous about it although prepared alot ... it lasted more than a usual 20 minutes .. and lots more for the QnA session ... i didnt calculate time ... but i was sure it was long .. my shirt tucked-in (i hate that!), im all alone, its driving through ... my nerves...and bone-s ... i have never felt so nervous for any presentation before like this one .. i had no chance but to get there .. it went smoothly though ... better than expected ... much better , finally i can relax for abit ...

now eyes focused on a more bigger challenge ... the much awaited : The final year project .... oooo, now thats a challenge i really like ... just hope it goes well .. if every thing goes as planned ... it sure will be of the best project for the computer science department (hope so) ... thats a target ...

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"A disposable helping machine"

salam and peace to all ...

tomorow will be the presentation .. im supposed to present what iv done in the past 4 months .... ayaaaaa ... i dont know from where il start and how will i conclude it ...

it has been a wonderful time .. specially when you get an office at the 16th floor of a building where you can read as much as you like without a single fly interfering ... no people, no noise , no garbage, no feelings, no idiots, nothing ... just you and your materials ... i guess i will miss the office here ...

Iv just read different blogs, the bad news .. iv known these people for a long time .. by faces .. not by names .. so i browse through these blogs .. and get the feeling i never knew these people ...

so many examples ... like the blog of many of my so-called class mates ... whom i never even knew their names ... although we meet at corridors all week ... anyway .. who cares laaa ...

and even if you i do care to know ... it will be a disapointment that i get ... its really hard to get into people these days .. they have different excuses to "dispose" you ... even the basic behaviour that we expect from a muslim or a normal human being does not exist in many from whom iv known ... and i mean saying "Alslam alikum" .. plainly .. not "Alslam alikum wa rahmatullah , how are you today" ... i just want you to tell me : "alslam alikum" ... how hard is that damn it!!!! .... not even a smile do you get from people you see for 3 years ... but anyway .. it was good to know that they are expressing themselves somewhere ... with othe people ... and i mean on the net ...

its the last semseter .. and there is no hope of changing anything at our study place .. i was happier anyway ... its really bad to know or feel that you never existed in a place although you were there for about 3 years ... and im glad i ended it those 3 years ... not more ... my friends were the books and my CPU ... plus my digital musical instruments :) ... who wants a better life than that! .. and who can forget the sincere engineering students who made my life better at a university "level" .. although im from the computer science department ... i have to admit that most and i mean propably all of my friends are from other faculties and departments .. a really unusual situation made possible ...

usually in every department there are groups who will stay together .... not in department i was at ... i dont believe it myself!!!!

no matter how nice you become and how helpful you be ... you will be treated like any other disposable item ...

we shouldnt be saying this in a university level by the way ... maybe im too emotional ... but the truth .. there is no feeling of friendship or wahatsoever ... its all based on "If you have what i need then you will give me what i need and you will be disposed later" ..

its all based need-n-benefit ...

its either you are from a specific category .. or you have what they need ... even with all that you might fit ...

what a waste of time for me .. and they told that in a university , you will understand things better ... yah i understood .. i understood many things ... negative and positive about humans ... butit was a waste of time ... as i wished that i will meet someone who will respect as a person .. not as a helping machine ... or maybe .. "A disposable helping machine" ..


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The FYB day! (its FYP ;)

Alslam and peace to ye all ...

It was the FYP showcase .. the day i have been waiting for since last year's showcase ... our "seniors" will show their final year projects and we decide ... we vote and we encourage ... or we may continue and enhance their works ...


There was a very tight race between 2 projects really,

1 - The Robots: an assembled robot from different parts fitted with a microchip, camera and can be controlled with wires ...

2- The Boolean toolkit ... which is a software that can generate truth tables and circuits diagrams from some input of AND OR XOR ... etc

These were both fascinating and I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw em ... running successfully ... except for those cockroach's-thing-like sensors ... which will go into nothing when hitting a v-shaped corner ... but building 2 robot models is a success by itself, assuming students with no electronics knowledge .. except for the famous Appendix-A of our computer architecture and assembly language book :)

As for the boolean toolkit, it was an interesting idea, and i always liked teaching tools that will make the student's life easier ... it can be actually used in Logic Design classes ..
It was a good day .. and all the best to the others such as the groovy VOIP and the WiMAX simulation (although i didn't see the simulator running ;) )

Now .. its contemplation time for our own project ... im stuck with so many ideas and need the idea that will sure succeed .. there is no place for a disaster or unfinished project .. it MUST be done ... and i hate taking risk when it comes to projects ...

My industrial attachment presentation may be done next week .. and its really unpredictable since i have no idea of procedure or Q n A session ... good luck to myself, i really need an A, not less , not less,, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less, not less .....

I WILL!!!!

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Death Cross : Masjid Jamek

Alslam and peace ...

and as the title says .. its a death cross ... i mean crossing of a street ... people like to cross that street in a rush, sometimes dangerously ... and i really hope that nothing happens there ... i mean the street directly under the LRT station and leading to Masjid jamek ... there is a traffic light .. but some like to fight with time (and death) ... while rushing to cross that street ... i really feel that cars have the right to move ... so if an accident do happen ... blame the idiots ...

anyway ... feeling happy these days ... got my hands on a new programing language , the name is Python ... i really recommend you to try try if you are interested in programming languages ...

the weather is rainy .. too rainy ... people are people and me is me ... nothing new .. same life ... same looks of people ... same food im eating ... same route i take to work ... same daily routine ...

On these days it happened ... im oppressed ... discriminated and insulted by someone in a higher level than me ... a lecturer .. and this is not the first case of this kind ... it happened the same way with a previous lecturer .. i really hope those idiots will understand that there is no place for racism within campus ... just because im not from the same country ... it means you can ignore me like that .. Damn It!!!!

but, i can always write that negative report at the end ... i will this time ... i had enough ... and if the report doesn't work ... a debate will ... i hate fightings ... but no one will take my marks like that ...

anyway ..

who cares!!!!


Garbage......


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Slap on the face!!!

Salam and peace ...


How ye all??? hope fine ...

so back again to writing, ... after some busy weeks ... finally the industrial attachment or practical training will come to an end ...

presentation should be coming week ... and FYP , final year project ... here we come ...

about the slap on the face ... it happened yesterday ,,, when i was called to help some people, but when i went there .. it was as if they tried to tell me ... what are you doing here and who needs you??? although i was there to help and they knew nothing of what they were supposed to do ...

ahhhhh .. students oh students ... never change huh??? but that got me real mad ... i mean someone comes and tell you ; hey! i here to do work for you .. you shut your damn mouth, look at him and then insult him by looking at him without answering his questions, nor do you respect that he left his stuff, and came to you ... garbage i say!!! ... yah those people are garbage and deserves no respect .. i really regret leaving my place, thinking of a way , going to the lab to get my a** kicked like that .. AAAAAArgghhhhhhhhhhh ... anyway ... it will not happen again ...

anyway .. finished my 80-pages report ... hope supervisor will like it (or have time to read it!!)

and now stuck for an FYP idea .. an fyp is final year project by the way ...

day 25 is coming of this month .. and there are about 30 days in a month ... all of them are normal, except that i have 3 events going on this day .. ayaaah ...dont know how to organize lah ... and none of the 3 is sacrifice-able ...

i have about 5 month left at university ... and every day that passes feels bad since i wish life will become like it was 2 years ago ... friends are decreasing, loyalty and respect are gone ... i don't believe anyone anymore ... life isn't as interesting ... well maybe i'm the problem ... and the saying goes "We Are All Part Of the Problem" ...

and yah ...

We are all part of the problem ...


i had so many things to write about before a week ... it faded away .. next time i'l carry a small note with me ... :) .. just in-case i forget ...

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The Eid (Celebration After Ramadan)

Alslam

Selamat hari raya and Eid Mubarak to all


It has been a very fast Ramadan indeed, and many will agree , and many will know that days are going real fast which is a sign of the "end of days" ...

anyway .. Ramadan has been nice and spiritual as always ... well at least at the begining :)

It has been a wonderful month for me, full of reading and writing for the project related to the industrial attachment .... and yeah sure .. im stuffed with JavaBeans ... it was all about Java and J2EE .... welll ... nothing like what we had during courses, its quite intensive ... someone has ot read different technologies at the same time and find the relation between these technologies and create something new ... well .. sort of ..

anwyay .. 1 month to go, shouldn't be that hard after finishing 4 months ....

back to our favourite Ramadan .. well ... its hard for you to notice it when you are in the city ... except when its time to eat ...

and saturday should be our favorite celebration of the year ...

so Selamat Hari Raya to all friends and foes .... wu Eid Mubarak

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Africans ... and Malaysia :)

Alslam .. and peace ..

well ... again , we read the newspaper and see the phrase "2 Africans ....." or "African caught ..." ...

its really annoying to see reporters ignore the fact that Africa is not a country ... maybe they ignore it because they want to ...

Im a Muslim (mixed African) ... and it really annoys me when i see that title ... i mean why not specify a country .. or do you think that "whatever round is a ball" .. or a "watermelon"!!!

i mean respect the 50++ African countries, all have different identities ...

but i agree with the Kepong people that having Africans in the neighborhood is disturbing... wait!!! did i just say Africans????

So please know that Africa is separated, and we also hate some of these "Africans" as much as you do for their involvement in drugs, money "laundering", cheating , "whistling" crossing women and getting drunk ... plus their ir-respectful behavior towards anyone who is smaller than them ....

and we hate them more than you think ... we hate seeing them, because they tarnish the image of whoever looks like an "African" ...

i myself was insulted many times for looking like them .. although i was raised up in a middle-eastern style of a family .. we are Arabs, my mother is an Arab ... my father is an Arab that looks like an Indian .. and i think i got the African look from my Granny ...

and by the way .. not all Africa is bad .. although majority is ... you have north and south African countries ...

so don't generalize when you hate "Africans" ... there are those better than you ...

just be careful ... don't be racist ...

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Racism in the Masjid

Alslam N peace ...

today .. on this Friday ... i got the shock of my life ... a depressing moment ... a tragedy ... a disaster ... its ....... its ..........

Provoking Nationalism from inside the Masjid... by an Ustaz ... and for those who don't know; Ustaz is a teacher .... or a person who gives talks ...

yah ... Nationalism and Racism from inside the Masjid ... he was talking about a certain race .. making it superior over the others ... mixing Islam with a race or a nation ... talking as if he never studied about how Islam separated itself from a certain nation or race ... and the famous hadith "There is no difference between an Arab and a non-Arab, except in fear of Allah"

He interpreted the hadith that says: give sadaqah to those near to you, by saying we should give sadaqah first to those from our race .... forgetting that sadaqah (charity) was for muslims ... the nearer Muslims .. and it aint about a race ...

no wonder people grow up with these ideas although they are Islamic-based ...

no wonder we can never Unite ... no wonder Islam and the Ummah will never be a reality ... and no wonder that no one noticed that he was wrong in what he said ...

and no wonder that 90% of people here dont understand the basics of Islam ...

so his speech was based on Racism that was generated from the Nationalist ideas he grew up with ...

What a disappointment .. Garbage ... and i was going to hear a motivating talk for the muslims ...


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Society ... and men

Alslam and peace to all ...

The last time i wrote was about women, and i know that whoever read that post will label me as a "sexist" and discriminative against the female sex ... well it isnt like that .. if you read thoroughly you will find find that im talking about facts ... at least from a point of view. ..

anyway .. i have waited for a long and not written this one .. so it will be neighboring that topic ...

let the show begin ...

Men Oh! Men ... i have always looked at ourselves as a sex-oriented creatures .. yah .. borrowed from the object-oriented concept in computer science ... once a friend of mine , considered a secular person , gave me a hint .. he said: as long as we are sex-oriented, we will never advance nor succeed ... and yah true he was ... after long thinking , i found out this was our major problem as men that will put us into so much trouble ... some of us will see any object from his own sexual point of view ... like innocent apples, bananas , flower vases .... they all represent sexual objects .. and this will be "inherited" as well to cover women ... and our view towards women as sex-objects ...

This a big problem that i use to have ... there are many causes for it .. and the number one cause is the way we are raised ... some of the fathers will have this feeling towards women ... at least since im coming from an eastern culture .. so i can say this .. some fathers will raise their kids as if the daughter was something else ... and not a normal human .. from here come the confusion ...
even our societies response to a divorced and working women as "not clean" ... what the hell !!!

I mean lets look at it from this side ... what does a women who was raped has to do with the crime??? we still have some people who will blame a raped women for being raped ... and those are men ... and then there is the type (im from this type and trying to change) ... that will be blaming them for whatever happens ...

true we are need to change as men ... and our look towards the other sex must change ...

the problem worsened when people mixed culture with religion .. some cultures will "hold the women from the throat" and wait for her to do a mistake ... we'll in Islam we always had women talking , and expressing their problems ... but when we mix culture and label it as Islam ... just to satisfy our grandfathers desires .. we only tarnish the good, flexible and peaceful way of Islam itself ...

but there is still that infinite loop ... one friend once said ... "repair" the men .. the women will automatically be "repaired" ... hope this become true .. and according to stats it is true ..


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Society ... and women

Alslam and peace ...

I have just read in the newspapers about the current increase in child sexual abuse ... and sexual abuse generally ... yah, we might say that child abuse is some kind of sexual disorder... but when it comes to rape ... I mean adults here .. Then it ain't a disorder anymore... but its an act based and motivated by many elements, and from these elements: violent-sexual-based movies, porn magazines, porn DVD's , porn sites , sexually provoking series , the never ending call for sex by many advertisements and commercial companies trying to sell their stuff ... so it seems we are living in a sex-based world ... wherever you look .. There is sex... and since this is one of those animal instincts that humans are “embedded” with ... it will be triggered ... maybe more than 24 times a day ... and oh i forgot ... one more element that people don’t like to talk about of fear of being labeled uncivilized and closed-minded ... and this element is just an addition to those elements. But I do think it can be a major cause for our sexual problems and crimes... The way women dress, behave and act in public... They are like telling you: "sir, would you please attack me, im a lonely lady walking half naked at night or at closed corridors alone" ...but then someone will interrupt me and say: sir why don’t you control yourself... So my answer will be: yah... im controlling myself but she isn’t controlling her seduction ... she is seducing me -for God's sake- ... and today in LRT's , buses and even just walking around the streets you will be able to see different sexual parts of women exposed to the public .. Its not like women want to look beautiful anymore... but as if they are trying to tell, we are all for you to take ... just present us with your good character and credit card or full wallet ... and some of them are actually innocent, and they will be scared... And they will never approach men ... but the questions marks are:

Why are you doing this to yourself??

Why do you need to expose all those body parts??

Do you want to be beautiful or want to be raped by some maniac on the streets??

Do we blame this maniac if everything around him tells him to do it??? Even that Nike old logo "Just Do It"!!!!!

Why do ladies get scared when anyone approach them ... although they are wearing bit**es-attire , and the way they act tells that they will accept invitations????

(and when i say bit**es attire , i mean an attire that will make her in the same standard of a bi** in the past years ... look at prostitutes of the 90's .. and compare how they wear ... with what women wear today)

If you really believe in freedom, then prepare for the freedom of others to look at you, if you like privacy, then those are private parts that you shouldn’t be exposing to the public...

And when you do expose, don’t blame others... Because exposed means public??? Isn’t it?

And you know what the problem is??? The problem is that no one thinks there is a problem in this society … people believe that satisfying their desires is all that matters … forgetting that satisfying all desires have some side-effects as well …

So you you may be saying ,why the hell is guy putting 70% of the blame on women??? .. well .. just look around you and you will see what im talking about ... i never understood women , but from what i see ... they are in need for money and men ... else why do they do all this??? and another point-of-view .. women are the cause of the women problem , they are the one's who force each other into making fool of themselves in the hope of finding some man ...

you don't have to do all this ...

All this, I believe that the punishment for a rapist is still light... We need more sever punishments (plus awareness)... And true... men must control themselves ... and true that women have the right to look beautiful ... but the formula and the existence of that animal behavior within the human being makes it complex ..So I hope both parties (men and women ) will cooperate in solving their own social problem … it’s a problem that may cripple the whole society in the future...

May We wake up before we loose everything ... for we ignore the basics of common sense

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Missing Children: Should parents be charged? ...

Alslam and peace to alll ...

and yah .. this is the latest news .. and my comment will be ...

Why do we always like to focus on the "side" topics and leave the real topic??? its like we try to divert the attention of people ... i mean we should be talking about how severe the punishment should be for such inhumane act ... and not to punish the parents ... because this will be just like another "chicken-egg" problem .. since we cant prove anything against parents unless its really obvious ...

and this proves one thing : the people talking about this now aren't really feeling what the parents feel ...

The problem with some parents here come when there is miscommunication between the parents which leads to separation of the family ... and i noticed some parents will not even be looking at each other , although they are sitting in the same table ... but this is a social problem that need to be resolved , and has no relation with such case ... these types of cases are caused by many other factors ... and please ... i hope they will not come and tell us that the criminal was crazy and he did all this without him knowing what he did ...

This is a criminal ,and if he was crazy he shouldn't be wandering on the streets preying on innocent children like that ...

anyway .. hope the best will happen ... insha'llah

So today went to campus, it was interesting ... increased my interest on Math ... and planing to study more discrete math in the coming days ...

We learned about Dynamic programming today ... its a type of problem solving technique where you keep track of subproblems result , so it can be used in other computations ... and also Memoization

I have also learnt today that math isn't hard after all ... (this isn't what a Computer Science student should say .. but its a feeling :) ...


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Bad news ... And me going Mad ...

Alslam and peace ...

as usual , spent Saturday at campus, and on Friday had one of the best Iftars , with a group of about 16, they are considered to be of my best friends, so we made the gathering .. it was more than a success .. but one of my friends was not there .. although i hoped he was ...

and the week ended fine, with more J2EE to learn and more focus on FYP preparation ... it seems that 2-month before isn't enough ...

and again we hear of the saddest news in this Ramadan ...

"Five days after the body of a girl in the gym bag was found, Nurin Jazlin Jazimin's parents broke down and cried yesterday, acknowledging the DNA results.

Nurin's father, Jazimin Abdul Jalil, a taxi driver, made the heartfelt plea at the Madrasah As-Sa'adah mosque where prayers were being held for Nurin before the burial.

"It is not the parents who should be blamed," he said.

"We loved our daughter. This is not our fault.
"You cannot blame us." thanks to the NST

I Really felt bad for the parents and from this blog i send my deepest condolences ... and i also hope for a heavy punishment for the criminal ... a heavy punishment should be imposed o him if found ... there is no way of mercy , because he doesn't know mercy ...

This act is so bad, that i cant think of a punishment ... you rape, sexually abuse , kill and then dump the body of a young girl like that means you aren't a human ... and i think even the devil will not do such a thing ...

May Allah help the parents and punish the criminal ... in this life and the hereafter ...

anyway .. this week has been full of bad news as well ... on the other side of the paper ... Mourinho .. the manager of Chelsea, resigns .... wee, although im a supporter of Manchester United (since 1995) ... but i felt not-so-good-either ... the man gave the EPL that "different taste" ... and he stirred as well ... blending his own ideas in a football league that has been "conservative" for quite some time ... anyway .. farewell Mr.Mourinho ... the EPL and all of us will miss you ... and wish you all the success as well ... (btw , i was once an enemy of yours :)

its 10.10 night .. and i have to go ...

but before that ... i would like to shout here .. a place no one will hear me ... that i really regret knowing some people from our faculty ... the ICT Department and Compuetr Science ... those aret he type of people that will know you for something ... but once they get it ... they will pretend they never saw you the second day .. and then they will never greet you back unless they are cornered ... they will make themselves (blind) for a moment ... they think you want from them what they wanted from you .. they think that all relations are based on something .. like you have to need something to know a person ...

These people made me crazy with them ... but .. who cares????? .. right!!!!

I really hate those girls who will invent ideas about you wanting to have them as your girlfriends ... well idiots .. you didn't understand me after 3 years !!!!! .. i don't need no damn girl .. its not compulsory in life to have a boyfriend or girlfriend ... so leave me alone before i blow up in your face ..

dont try to show me , or prove to me that you arent interested in a relation ... because im not seeking it ... some guys and girls sucks out there .. this is computer science for Allah's sake ... learn to program .. not to love ...

(to be continued)

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3 annoying types

salam and peace ...

1 - people who think they walk in an empty 3D space and never use the word "excuse me" or "sorry".

2 - People who walk too near to your back , to a limit that you can smell their breath although they are behind you ... and the same type who will leave half a step when going behind you on an escalator.

3 - The type who will ask you for something and then never notice that you helped them, even when that help saved them from some disaster ... and not just that .. they will also give you that grumpy look back ...

now the above are really really annoying ...

and today .. our partner at work mentioned something that i really wanted to share with the world ... he said:

Its not a matter of how long you live ... but its a matter of blessings you get during your life ...

He mentioned this after some other guy said when our friend arrived after we mentioned his name (this is famous) .. that our arriving friend has along life ... and they will tell that if you arrive after your name is mentioned you will live longer ...

and i think this a false statement and a false belief ... even if it was said to make you happy ... so hope we will not fool ourselves with these types of statements ...


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2 Boys and a Girl

Peace and salam ...

Im presenting here a true story ... the view-point is my viewpoint ... i mean im writing based on how i see it ..

so it began ... long time ago during year 2006 ... there were these 2 boys and that 1 girl ... they were on a journey to some place to do some work ... it was specific and everyone knew what he was going for ...

Suddenly, the girl was too nice to one of the boys ... but it seems that the other boy didn't like it ... he was jealous ... but the 1st boy didn't notice whats going around him ... and he thought it was only jokes and teasing ... but at the end of the day .. the other boy lost his "joking" control and started to behave weirdly ... just to prove his point ... the main possibility is ... he's in love with the girl ...

wow! .. he's in love ... thats not the problem .. the problem is when he tries to provoke the first boy ... he tries to provoke him and continues until it reached a level that he begins to show what he really wants .. but he never mentions it ...

and now after a long time , the first finally understood .. but after the outing was screwed by the second boy .. and the girl never changed during that outing .. ... although she knew what was happening ... she kept on making the one that loves her fall in the trap of jealousy ...

now thats not what the first boy expected from the girl as he was trying to be nice with her .. not more , not less ... he was trying to return the "nice" things she did ...

and at the end ... the first and second boy's relation became too unstable .. and they nearly broke-up .. because that "innocent" girl ...

but the first boy decided to change the theme to "hidden feeling" .. as to preserve whats left from his friendship with that boy ... but then he found out that he was an idiot after all ... he was put in a situation that wasn't comfortable .. both for him and for them ... they should have just cleared out things from the beginning ... but they kept quite, tortured themselves and tortured the other boy ....


and this story will end in less than 4 month ... yah i know .. because im a witness to such a pathetic "friendship" between ... 2 boys and a girl ...

anyway ..

I just finished watching "Geisha Girl" ... a documentary about those Japaneses girls who wear Kimono and entertain customers (limited entertainment - officially- so they aren't legally prostitutes) ... anyway .. the interesting thing was their loyalty to the job and their respect to the profession ... its quite depressing and personally will never ever participate if i was a Japaneses girl :) .... but they will spend most of their life training, and the rest of their life is spent paying back their training fees ... unless a rich man "free" them .... I really feel bad for them .. as Islam provide them a better respect and status levels ... but maybe they never heard of it ... and Japan is facing many social problems although they are of the most advanced technologically .. maybe 10 years "in front" of other countries in the field of technology ... still they cant find happiness ... and i hope many of them will find it in this religion ...

So today im suffering alot at office .. network is down .. we have some problem with the ISP ... an event i cant handle really ... no internet means no business ..

so till we get that internet back .. i will continue with this online personal notes of mine ...

i cant wait to be posting some posts in Arabic .. but they wont be many .. im just waiting for something to begin writing in Arabic ...



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Breaking-Fast .. near to Maju junction

Peace and salam ...


Me and my friend decided to have breakfast during this fastin month at K.L. ... so we went and enjoyed the food ..at KFC :)

Some of the weird thin i noticed was the very very early signs that says : Selamat Hari Raya .. or similar .. like comoooonnnn .. its just the beginning of the month ... its more of an ignorance to whats really going on ... or maybe a wish for this fabulous month to finish as fast as possible as if it doesn't exist ... forgetting that Hari Raya is nothing without this month ... so a "Selamat berbuka puasa" is a better slogan .. at least in the first 15 days .... anyway .. who cares!!!

Then there these weird dreams im having these days ... lost in maze of stairs within Semua House's stairway ... walking on a very thin light bridge made of ropes ... and many more things that i will not mention ...

so tonight i will be missing Taraweeh as well ... since i had some papers to finish and need to download some files as well .. AAArrghhhhh

and the hunt for a Final year project is still going .. not yet settle-lah ... it all boils down to the very limited knowledge we gathered in the past 3 years of Uni ... time runs very fast ... really ... i still remember my first day at Uni before 3 years ... since i got lost in that huge campus anyway ...


Comment of the day ... "and AbDdU's Special Comment" ..

THIS IS NOT HIJAB ... EVEN IF YOU COVER YOUR HAIR - DONT FOOL YOURSELF ... AND YES YOU ARE FOOLING YOURSELF IF YOU WEAR THIS ASSUMING YOU ARE ON "HIJAB" ... so in the image covering the WHOLE Face .. how CRUEL i am .... this comment came-up as i found that females don't really understand what the heck is wrong with their attire ... HIJAB IS COVERING YOURSELF ... NOT COVERING YOUR SKIN

Now in this image .. all the dimensions are clear ... unless you want to look like a Bi** ... you don't really have to wear this type of cloth

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On the bus to campus

Alslam ..

and peace ..

Well , yah .. while on the bus to campus , Iv saw things that shouldnt be seen in this month ... many many things ..

I saw some peopel who claim to be something , but look like another ... i have not felt Ramadan in that bus ... it was quite disapointing ... it has become a norm .. no one sees it unusual anymore ...

and at the same time there was the life and hereafter expo ... there were signs .. and there were people promoting ...

but i dont think many of us students here .. Read, Listen or watch .... it seems like the majority of students dont actually feel or know of the problem ...

welll ... the problem is .. we are nothing .. we are just plain dumb-asses walking around campus without even knowing whats going around at campus or around the world ... it seems no one reads about Islam, nor ethics ...

forget ethics ... this campus has become just another place to be at ... it has lost its soul ...

and we can only blame those who isolate themselves , wothout being able to voice out the truth ... hoping that they will be in heaven ... forgetting that we will be asked about what we did to spread the word ...

why make expos and lectures if you dont really want to share what you learn in them ... at least if you cant share it in English ... share it in your language .. Malay ... but it seems society here likes to keep quite .. even in dangerous situations ...

well now i have to go and pick up my sister's marriage pictures ... i have no time to write more

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Reporting : From Masjid Jamek

Alslam - peace -

Well .. first Friday of Ramadan ... so i decided to head Masjid Jamek, for those unaware its a very old Masjid located at Kuala Lumpur - its the oldest by the way - a 100 years mosque ...

Before the Khutbah began, they had a very nice "lecture" or "Ceramah" .. as called in Malay ... i really liked the speaker ... it was in Malay ... so i'l try to translate some of it ...

The speaker began with reciting a verse from AlQuran ... 2:183 O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you

But he didn't stop .. and mentioned another verse , from the same Surah or chapter ... O ye who believe! Al-Qissas is prescribed to you ....

and al-qissas here refers to the Punishment for certain acts.

So he said: we happily accept the first ,with joy and full enthusiasm ... but when it comes to the other verse ... which is in the same surah and uses the same language and has the same structure and order-form. ... we will then not have the same response as the first ...

and the full verse goes:

"O you who believe! Prescribed for you is Al-Qisas (legal retribution : Something justly deserved; recompense) in the case of the murdered: the free for the free, the slave for the slave, and the female for the female. But if the killer is forgiven by the brother of the killed against blood-money, then adhering to it with fairness and payment of the blood-money to the heir should be made in fairness. This is an alleviation and a mercy from your Lord. But whoever transgresses after that will have a painful punishment. And in Al-Qisas (legal retribution) there is a saving of life for you, O people of understanding, that you may become righteous." [Al-Baqarah 2:178,179]

but as the speaker said .. we take from the Quran what we like ... and deny or neglect what we don't like ... based on personal desires ...

and this ignorance will only lead to more gruesome killings ... as the murderer knows he will not be punished that severe anyway ...

He also talked about the Belief (Iman) , Taqwq (Fear -of allah) ... and mentioned that it should be our source of unity and strength, referring to the 50 years of Independence, and how the strengthened "Malay" feeling during those years overcame the "Islam" feeling, and if it wasn't for that Islamic and Iman feeling among many, he wondered what will have happened to the "Malay" ...

and while im writing this, im hearing on TV, a rape scene from some stupid Egyptian series ... the scene lasted for more than 30 minutes ... it was really, really , really annoying ... i guess it was one of those wacky, insane and idiotic producers and writers of such pathetic series ... and they want to show this on TV, during Ramadan .. it was aired on channel ART, they call the Arab Radio and Television ... yah rite ... they only broadcast garbage ... although i was inside the room , i could hear the screams outside ... the easy solution was to change he damn channel

back to our speaker, he ended with a really sad story of the companions, and how they suffered for the sake of this religion ... a sacrifice that we forget ... we only remember that Mr Independence sacrificed for our countries ... but those sacrificed not just for a nation .. they sacrificed to save our beloved prophet, they sacrificed for Islam and they sacrificed so the message will remain alive, so it will reach us today ...

but ... we never cared .. we never read history ... we never read at all ...

we will stay like this forever .. or become worse .. unless someone stands up and speak aloud ...

You, me , or whatever .. the word must be spread .. or we will never be able to answer on the day of judgment ...



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Ramadan ... at Kuala Lumpur ..

Alslam - peace - to all ..

Its the 1st day of Ramadan ... September 2007, Kuala Lumpur (K.L) not as usual .. and everything is misplaced, it began with a small jam at the morning, but it was ok ... Streets filled with extra stalls ... specially TAR area ...

but still some Muslims arent aware that this is a so-called special month ... like at least we should change "abit" ... at least we feel that its a different month ... - although that feeling isnt suppose to be only in this month - but i can still see those who pretend nothing is happening ... walking on the streets just like any other day ... unaware of the en-ethical state they are in ... like a guy putting his hand on the back-pocket of his "girlfriend" jeans, 2 others walking their hands and bodies "glued" to each other, those deeply-tight jeans are still on the loose ..

but mainly the streets are less crowded, probably i should wait for 5 or after that ...

still havn't witnessed how it is at campus ... should be testing it in the coming days ... inshallah ... although i have a feeling that it will be disappointing for such an institute to have such samples ... roaming and walking around for no respect - even to themselves -

so i began this day with unstable health ... flu in the morning, and a some disturbing stomachache

So il just wait and observe how this Ramadan will be treated .. specially observing my own self ... as my past Ramadans weren't really planned or focused and i regret loosing the chance to something ... this Ramadan should be different ... inshallah ... hope to see some progress from all aspects ....

And before i end ... Finally , i have registered my last subjects at Uni. , and next sem will be the last ... finally ... but now i have to squeeze my brain and my partner's brain for some final year project idea ... it felt so great to register those last subjects ... although there were obstacles from here and there .... virtual obstacles made by the department ... but the registration went fine ... and we are now on the process of getting the idea ...

There are quiet a number of fields ... from Cryptography, Security, Embedded systems to Neural networks .. and choosing a topic from these fields isnt that easy ... it requires a strategy ... a strategy that will lead to a finished project ...

all for the moment

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FYP = Final Year Project (MEETING 1)

Alslam (peace) ...

well , well , welll ..... it was a disaster ... empty promises .... people who like to talk alot and do little ... shout ... preach ... but little done ...

it was quite disappointing ... i reached earlier in the morning, hoping to meet old "pals" ... but it was again .. a disaster ... as usual .. no one has the "intention" to come ... we do this , we do that .. this the slogan .. but when it comes to implementation ... i dont know lahhhhh .. who cares!!!! ..

yah .. this was always the behavior and attitude of " WHO CARES!!!!" .... yah .. who cares ... nobody cares ... no one will ... whatever happen to the other .. as long as im having fun .. who cares ....

this is year 4 guys ... and girls ....

if u still don't have the "appetite" to discuss about technologies ... then find some other business to do ... computer science was always about discussion .. because u cant understand everything by your own ... and if u want to learn by your own ..please do let me know of what you will learn in the next 10 years .... "Garbage"....

we witness creativity at western universities ... so we blame our university ... no one blames himself for not being responsible ...

well ... if u say i will ... and don't do ... thats called irresponsible ... be it a small or big matter ...

im just saying this , because im really disgusted by what happened today ....

DISGUSTING ... it is to say and dont do ... moreover , pretend that you care ....

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Advice .. nasihah ...

Salam and peace to all ...

A tiring week it has been ... really tiring ... and it shouldn't be ending ...

anyway .. have learned alot from some Problem solving and algorithms ... its quite interesting to let your brain work ... and i'v found out that we rarely think about a problem ,,, so now im getting the idea of how to look at games and puzzles - at least using different point-of-views ...

as well ... the long awaited ummatic week has been canceled or postponed ( not sure which) , and our Fasting month is coming ... now i really don't know how to arrange time for this special month ... its either eat better food at home or pray at our grand mosque ... we'll figure that out ...

Today .. Sinar (not sure of full name) , the newspaper is out ... a very interesting idea .. its a newspaper that takes care of the capital Kuala Lumpur and Selangor province ... sure will be reading that , as its more focused ... on places at least i heard of ... not like when you present me with problems at JB or other states ...

Now lets head for abit of discussion ...

its about life ... people and feelings ...

Sometimes we find ourselves surrounded by people ... we knew for a long time ... but suddenly we feel we never knew them ... probably they are trying to tell ... "I have known you for something ... i wanted .. and now i got it ..so scram!!!!!" ...

Well this is what i feel at least ... judge me of being over-sensitive for caring about this ... but im wondering ..and it really disturbs me ... of how they think .. i mean ... what goes into their mind after they do this ... ???? do they just forget and restart another session???? ... sometime you just feel all people around are up to something ... they need something ...

like in the past few weeks , i got some sms's and calls from people not remembered for a long time ... then to discover after sometime that they wanted help in something else ...

now please ... that disgusting ....

now lets move away from personal thoughts and feelings ... lets move towards a different topic .. a topic touched in previous posts ... "Criticism" ...

We have that : everyone is accountable, no one is beyond criticism ... furthermore, the freedom to criticize should not be used as a mean of degrading people or tarnishing their image, or just as a mean to hurt other's feelings ... but at the end it depends on how much you know the person in most cases ...

There are some conditions that must be met in order to ensure the validity of a given criticism ...

(1) - It is necessary to establish the facts an ascertain the grounds on which criticism is based.
So if someone comes to you with some news, make sure its correct. It should no be based
on assumptions or false ideas.
(2) - The critic should criticize based on the truth. so he shouldn't criticize based on something
he is not sure of. And if he was to know that mistake then its under lying or worse
hypocrisy.
(3) - The criticsm must suit the occasion, it must be courteous and effective.

We must always remember that Nasihah (advice) was never forcing, if you have something that you think is true, it doesn't really have to be the same with the other .... maybe the other is aware of the wrong-doing ... but waiting for the time to change (forgetting that death is an unknown variable) ... so here comes the art of discussion ... something we need to practice ourselves for and with ... for discussions and with discussions ...

Well seems like im giving some advice ... but while im writing this, i always think of myself ... and remember my friends statement "we must advice ourselves first" ... "so this is just a reminder , in case we forgot" ... (famously said by UmmahFilms director and creator)


walslam (peace)
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Sex and Photos .. what a case!!!

Alslam and peace to ye all

I have always read newspapers , but i always wanted to comment, and i thought newspapers were only there to report , not to comment ... i would love if we could - or the reporters - post their personal comments on newspapers .. or at least give people the chance to do that ... and fortunately their is online newspapers these days ..

so let me comment on this bizarre part of news iv read recently ... or precisely -today- ..

****************************My comments in brackets, mostly italic***************
*****************************fom the NST , 31 August 2007 ****************************
"

SHAH ALAM: They were in love but when the relationship turned sour, a 16-year-old girl was confronted with her worst nightmare.

Her boyfriend, a 19-year-old security guard, threatened to distribute pictures of her in the nude.

He had apparently taken the pictures using a mobile phone during their SEVEN-HOUR (wow!) sex session behind the guardhouse of SMK Section 7, here.

Yesterday, Irma Shamsul Izwan Jamahir, paid the price (was it the right price , or discounted??!!! ) for threatening the Form Four student. He was fined RM3,000 (price of having sex with a so-called underage is quite cheap) , or in default three months’ jail (again wow!!! this will deter the wrong-doers) , by the magistrate’s court after he pleaded guilty to threatening to distribute her pictures to ruin her reputation.

Based on the facts of the case, Irma and the girl had sex on March 27, between 10am and 5pm, where he had then taken pictures of her in the nude.
The next day, the girl decided to end the relationship (interestingly, finally the brain started to work ) but Irma refused (what was he hoping for???) . He met her on March 29 and threatened to distribute the pictures unless she remained with him.

The girl subsequently lodg-ed a police report (hoping that the pictures will not be distributed, that was her problem ... not really worried about her dignity as a young girl may have been shattered -according to some standards- ... these are Muslims names im reading about).

In mitigation, counsel Salim Bashir pleaded for leniency as his client had meant no physical harm (what a joke again ... i agree that it was with consent ... but sometimes mental harm is worse than physical harm, specially that a threat came after).

"He has now moved to Bagan Datoh and is still working as a guard there.

"He apologised to the victim and her family and promised not to do it again (what a nice boy he is ... indeed)," he said.

Prosecuting officer ASP Norazian Sharudin urged magistrate Hafizah Abdul Rajak to mete out a deterrent sentence (the only person who knew what was going on).

Irma’s father paid the fine (nice daddy ... hope to keep and save some money for next time).

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so from the above story ... everything was usual ....yah rite!!!!!!! , except the threat of distributing nude photos of a seven hour session - i still can imagine what happened, and why all this time was needed -, ... to me ... it was badly unusual ... so if this was usual ... can anyone share other interesting cases about love relationships which gone wild -- then bad???? ... no one can! .. because its unusual ... but taking out a report like that .. and then going to the next page without thinking of its consequences on the society .. is just lame reading of newspapers ...

just thought of sharing my view on this bizarre piece of (news) ....

wa (peace) (salam) to all ....

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Of the Week, Preaching and Programming

Alslam (peace) to all. ..

well as usual , back again , disappointed by whats going ... but who am I? and who cares?!! ..

This is the method used to counter events and actions these days ... who am I to speak ??? and who cares!!! its not your business , never it will ...

but for some reason .. i do care for whats happening around ...

so for the week ... lets begin with the most i can remember ... well it was yesterday night when some guy was up and talking hard .. trying to teach us how to love the nation and be like him ... someone who sacrificed alot for ... for the sake of the Nation ... anyway ... the guy was a good preacher and a liar as well ... he "bent", "twisted" information as he wanted ... to convince us that we are doing nothing to help our country-mates ... forgetting that those mates aren't really mates .. they are enemies-of-the-future... they don't hear advice nor do they act like students so we ca help them ... they are just like another 50cent on the block ... New York caps with baggy wear, 3 meters long T-shirts and Sean Paul signature on jeans ... passing over their A**e* ... so i came back night with headache ... and regretted visiting campus for that occasion ... it was unacceptable ... a 8 pm event was delayed till 10pm ... leaving no hope for extra time ... so it was another 2 hours wasted from my life ... and honestly i was there because of my friend who was being honored on that day for ending his Uni days ... he was disappointed as well ...

and many other events happened, i had to deal with people who don't own feelings, people who will assume what is not there , and those who will avoid you without telling you the reason for this avoidance .... one day they will greet you , the other day they pretend they never knew you ... what a joke ... at least tell me what i did wrong ... IDIOTS!

I had to revise many of Java "for Web Applications" techniques , and had to know how the heck servlets actually work .... now thats the most interesting thing of the week .. much more interesting that people and their "bizarre" behaviors ...

JSP was on the menu as well because its unforgettable relation with Java ... and also how to set up an environment for testing before deployment ...

quite interesting ... programming in a "web-based" environment needs lots of attention, from design to coding ... so better be ready before you do real business with it ...


so far so good for life ... will be back soon ,,,

walslam ...

People & Behaviour : Claims & Disbelief

Salam and peace ..

In the past few days , i have known some people that i have regret knowing ... people who will claim to be open-minded and intellectually fit for a debate ... but they turned out to be "hollow", cant withstand a talk, never actually try to understand, don't read , don't understand , don't "listen" , and don't bother to give a damn ....

So my question is : Why do you have to put yourself in that position??? and why do you ask for opinions if you cant accept them??? and why do you claim that you're interested to listen if you cant really accept other's ideas?? .... and if you think you don't need to know, then don't ask ...

but some people -these days- like to show something , but behave differently ... they raise slogans, posters, join groups , send speeches ... but still .... the belief in the idea isn't there i guess ..

and this type will really get my nerves "up and running" ... i feel sorry for the slogans , posters and shouting they make .. it is just wasted without belief in the idea ...

another problem ... with those types ... they like to run away from the main point ... making you feel that your an idiot ... or you aren't clear in what you say ... or that the idea was an illogical one ..

Just a thought to be expressed ... (incomplete writing ... to be structured later in time)

and Peace ....

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For the sake of the Nation

peace and salam ...

and after some usual day at work ... I came to a discussion with many friends and other people ..

The discussion was about the identity ... and I'm referring here to where and what we belong to ... is it nation , race , religion or just idiots in this world??? ...

It really concerns me ... who am I?? and to whom or what do I belong to?

so after "years" of thinking and observation plus lectures here and there ... i came to think that we are actually "hanged" to some ideas without our consent or realization ... and thats quite amazing .. how can we be fooled by this ... all this time!!

We are told since we were young that : You are Sudanese ... you should be proud of it , I hear other say and write about countries ... Baladi! (Arabic) , Negaraku! (Malay) ... Patriotic Americans ... and they claim that they feel the existence of The Nation within their souls ...

but when we read history books ... we can really find out that all of these "Nations" are actually fake!! ... we are happy to be recognized by certain nationality , We Are Proud To be From This Country!!!! .. but lets be honest here ...

as Muslims ... we know that we are supposed to proud of one thing ... Islam ... and thats the highest priority ... nothing is more important ... nor nothing should be better nor we should be prouder with something else...

but they will tell you : Whats the problem?? Its my country!!! i was born there and i will die there ... and who are you to talk about my nation????

Well , lets assume you were born, raised, and lived in another country .. weirdly we will find this same problem ... that person who never saw his "Nation" will have this weird relation and attraction to it ... it has become part of his soul : he will tell

so ..we're coming closer ... and Gotcha!! ... now i know why we are raised into being nationalist ... its the Parents, school and Mr. Government who needs support based on some false feelings built into people .. "embedded" by others into our hearts ...

They will tell us since our early young age : The Nation, later when we are growing: The Nation ... so we grew up believing in the idea -as it sounds correct- ...

but there is a nation existed always and will continue to exist ... Islam ... a religion, a way of life , a system , a Nation by itself that we can identify ourselves with ...

our grandfathers died for the sake of this ... they never died so we will continue to be in this situation .... and if they died for other reasons in themselves .. then its their problem .. and they have died for the sake of a false idea as well... if that was the case ..

During the old days , this idea existed , but wasn't that strong .. it was based on race more than nationalism ... and it was covered by the greatness of the system that was based on Islam ... at least from the outside ... people believed that they are one ... until one day came those who separated this big power ... for their own needs ... and called each place by some name ... they wanted it like this of course for their own benefits ... but we continue to "swallow" their ideas without thinking ... we are born to be Nationalists ...

and today ... not many would like to think of it .. fearing they will loose the benefits they selfishly share with others ... going against the main principles of Islam , Which is : We should be proud of this religion ... and shouldn't be proud of a "worldly" thing ... the worst thing is : Its not just worldly but false as well ...

but the contradiction will occur when we think we can behave as nationalists but claim we are proud of Islam .. actually these two cannot co-exist .. as one disqualifies the other ...

We reached a level of following a nation's culture .. even when it goes against the basics of Islam ... now who will be responsible of this on the day , when we are asked ... do you think the question will be : Where is your passport??? or do you think Sudanese will be lined in one line ... Malaysians lined in one line ... Americans lined in one line????!!!! Do you think we will be asked why we fought over a Piece of Land because it was owned by another country??? or why killed our own people but not people from other countries????

If that was the case ... then we will have to be and do ....

all for the sake of the Nation ....

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NOTE: Nationalism is defined as the following : (for those who never heard of the term)

1. Devotion to the interests or culture of one's nation.
2. The belief that nations will benefit from acting independently rather than collectively, emphasizing national rather than international goals.
3. Aspirations for national independence in a country under foreign domination

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walslam .. peace


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Why Windows Gets Messsed-Up ... Computers(1)

Peace ... salam ..

Level: Beginner - so if your an expert in the topic, you might provide feedback.

Welcome to the Linux world! ... this is what i have to say to those interested to try some new "Adventure" with another operating system.

An operating system is what runs your computer : Like Windows.

Now the question is: Can i change my operating system? ... and yes i tell you .. its easy to change your Operating system.

Now some will be thinking : Why the heck am i introducing Linux to people who don't recognize the word "Operating System" ... we'll easily answer : we never knew of operating system when we were at school either .. and no one was simple enough to tell us ... all will assume you already know about "software" and "installation" ... well i met people who don't really know what software installation was ... year 2006 - university level ...

an Operating system controls and starts our computer - it does the shutting down as well -

So what's the problem with Windows??? .... i might say for a simple person , its viruses and slow response after being infected with tonnes of spyware (some bad software) and hidden files (files that normal people don't care to see). These will lead after sometime in a slowness of the whole system. Its caused by carelessness in downloading garbage software, agreeing without reading the pop-up note or warning (and i don't mean the license agreement), trying some fancy wallpapers or screen-savers ... wandering around at un-ethical websites ... and downloading software from anywhere on the net .

most of the above are caused by the need to make your Desktop look "nicer" ... or add a new fancy tool that does nothing more than cute-looking stuff while it sucks down your bandwidth and slows the system.

so when you install new software ... make sure its safe ...at least from a known site, and don't think that an anti-virus alone can do all the watching ... it can help ... but not always ...

then ... too many applications (software)installed will just cause your system to become much more slower than you expect ...

the fancier you desktop is ... the more memory you're actually using ... which kills the system ...

try to stay simple with the looks of windows ... life isn't about how things look like , but how they behave as well ...

these what i can remember ... iv seen some torture their poor machines with garbage ... and then they will usually forget about the software installed after the trial ends ... well .. no one knows how to crack in the family ...

stay safe .. or you will loose that system and years of decoration ....

peace ... this shall be a series as well ...

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Sunday ... busy sunday ..

what a day it was ... Sunday .. busy Sunday ...

went to campus .. found so many "changed" things ... a newly renovated campus ... good time to renovate ... The PM is coming i heard .. convocation on the way ... Ummatic week ... and everything looks nice ...

Still, I'll be stuck with the Industrial attachment ... not being able to enjoy most of these events ...

anyway .. it was a good a new Sunday at campus ...

the anti-smoking campaign ...

But there was something that never changes ... the student's view towards basic rules and attire ...

and finally iv let the yahoo messenger radio play ... now with some country ...

wlslm

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After a year of not net-social-izing

Peace to all ...

and yah .. it really is ... i stopped meeting any of my net pals , friends and classmates online ...

but the problem is .. after this year .. i forgot who i had in my list ... and how did i got to know these people ... some were bizarre meetings ... people who aren't ideologically the same .. was i too fast in accepting people ???? ... simply yes i were .. i would get myself into knowing anyone ... but now the problem ... I don't remember them!!!! ... and i don't wanna see them either .. this one year was a total change for me ... but at the same time i felt sorry for eradicating them from my lists ... because some of them were invited by me ... and its not easy to cancel it just like that after an online virtual relation that stayed for more than 2 years ... but finally the decision was made .. and reduction began ... it all boils down to ideologies ...

thank god it was ... and this net-meeting business didn't work for me sometimes... iv considered it a waste of time ... although there were some people who turned out to be real good people ... but wasn't reflected in their profiles ... moral of the story?? look at the profile before you choose ... i don't have best of profiles ,... and i always thought my profile was contradictory ... but maybe thats me ... i have some contradiction with my own self ... and these contradictions are being resolved day-by-day ... hope so ...

but still ... when we meet or see profiles for the first time , we might find some people with really bad profiles .... but at the same time when you get to communicate with them ,,, you will find they have the same values you thought of them not having .. but they just tend to express it differently .. they express themselves in a way they see it "alright" ... some might be religious people ... but they left religion for the sake of "having their own lifestyle" ... which makes me think?? .. what made them leave the "old way"???

I think its how they see things ... and how they were told to do things .. and how they see others do some things ... quite interesting how people might change ... but the quality will stay with some ...

moral of the story ... i really don't understand people .. nor will someone understand the human beings .. unless we all try to follow some "Best lifestyle" ... it has been proven that lifestyles created by humans will never make you happy ... and thats why we have all these contradictions in our selves ...

Don't follow what you like ... follow the truth ... then you will find its actually what you like and what you have been searching for ...

The truth i found was Islam ...

Read about it ... read about the freedom it gives .. read from authentic sources not hatred-based sources .. and you will find what you always wanted .. peace in life ...

walslam ...

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"Satan , Me & The Wine"

Salam and Peace to all ...

Extracted from my previous dead Blog:

A poem written long ago ... i have taken out some of it for some reasons ... enjoy reading ...

"Satan , Me & The Wine"

shining stars
plus golden wine
equals a night
that ended fine

my soul returned
to the upper skies
and there i saw
Satan "disguise"
he sat and looked,
his mind was hooked,
as angels praised
the mighty God

he tried to steal
a word or two,
but angels knew
their passion grew,
for secrets of heavens
they felt the blue

war was waged,
and fronts engaged
in a fight against the devil
who then escaped,

he came falling
through the stratosphere
and down to earth ,
filled with fear
he took a breath
began to walk
in a silent stealth

he found me then
lying on the the ground
with wine and grapes,
left behind

so i woke up,,
cup in hand
hand in cup,

he sat and drank
from my drink of death
the talk began
with "Hi my friend"
so i thought ,
was this my end ?!

"welcome to the devil's creed"
.. his second phrase
my mind was puzzled
within his maze,
he took me with a grasp
to his kingdom
" hell " ,
fire ,
rounded with glaze,
I stood and watched
as groups appeared
in front of my eyes
then - dis- appeared
I asked him why
he told me
"please"
"you are below the seven seas"
"where day is dark
and night,-as i suppose -
will never ease,"
"so shut your mouth,
I'll walk you through
this sphere-like world
where me and you,
as friends of course,
will have a great time
women , wine and more of those,
if not enough ...
increase the "dose"
(censored)
go straight up
to reach a door
leading to a place
not reached before,
feel the heat
of the lower part
feel the beats
of your loving heart,
(censored)
now let her lie
play a "lay"
the "lay" of fun,
joined by two
to be in one
and there you have
the pleasure of life
with women and wine
plus Satan - of course-
as faith decline
and the soul of yours
becomes part of... mine...


Well ... its an idea i had and expressed ... although it might contain some "offensive" content which i have deleted .... (for the sake of not getting myself into deep trouble) ... and sorry for the deleted parts ...

and peace to all ...

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